Текст песни Capewood (remade and remastered) - Stibs

Since we've been at Capewood, it hasn't been the same
Somehow it all changed and yet everything remains
You still don't trust or believe what I say
Since the neighbors found me passed out in the driveway
Called the cops on me as I stumbled through the door
As I crumbled to the floor, I was humbled to the core
We took that red eye to St. Paul by the night
And I couldn't stop the shakes, sweating bullets on the flight

I wrote a letter to you, held my hand above the flames
I was tired of the shame but you loved me all the same
I know that you were hurt, had me worried for a bit
Know you hurried to commit but I heard you didn't quit
Heard you're doing better and I heard you found another
I hope you find the love that we couldn't give each other
Don't think I forgot, I care a lot, if I'm there or not
If only as a spare thought, we never had a fair shot

Say you'd break down if I leave but I could never
Cause you took a chance on me when I know you needed better
Tried to find the right time but had the wrong day
Still have the same pain but we came a long way
Our dads weren't there, learned to shave on my own
But look at this life that we made all alone
I still have our old pics saved on my phone
It's been a long road but I finally made it home

To all the ones left out
The hopeless fiends with broken dreams
We're nothing but wasted potential
But this pain is essential
I know the strength it takes
So don't break from the weight of your mistakes
And for the nights that I tried to die
I'll still show up when I don't know why anymore

Don't want to get high anymore
Don't want to get by anymore
And when I'm tired and done
And I've gone so numb that I can't even cry anymore
I won't let it turn me coldhearted
Even if I'm back where I started
And I'll go on my own
Cause it's been a hard year and a long road home

Had to accept that I couldn't have it all
In God's eyes I guess I had to fall but never thought I can't evolve
Made the sacrifices that you couldn't make, the prices that you couldn't pay
I took it all, I took the pain, I pushed until I pulled away
And this will always be a part of me
You got the early lead, that doesn't mean you're hard to beat
This arguably my hardest beat, don't need a harmony
My wrist already frozen, ice is flowing through my arteries

Traumatized I had to stay inside but wasn't made to hide
Saw through the smoke and mirrors, didn't even break a stride
You could take it all and couldn't take my pride
I found sanctuary as I nearly died and now I'm sanctified
And God knows my intentions
Soul, body, spirit, and my mind is an extension
I try to find direction as I fight for my redemption
To find the silver lining in the timing is progression

To all the ones left out
The hopeless fiends with broken dreams
We're nothing but wasted potential
But this pain is essential
I know the strength it takes
So don't break from the weight of your mistakes
And for the nights that I tried to die
I'll still show up when I don't know why anymore

Don't want to get high anymore
Don't want to get by anymore
And when I'm tired and done
And I've gone so numb that I can't even cry anymore
I won't let it turn me coldhearted
Even if I'm back where I started
And I'll go on my own
Cause it's been a hard year and a long road home

To all the ones left out
The hopeless fiends with broken dreams
We're nothing but wasted potential
But this pain is essential
I know the strength it takes
So don't break from the weight of your mistakes
And for the nights that I tried to die
I'll still show up when I don't know why anymore

Don't want to get high anymore
Don't want to get by anymore
And when I'm tired and done
And I've gone so numb that I can't even cry anymore
I won't let it turn me coldhearted
Even if I'm back where I started
And I'll go on my own
Cause it's been a hard year and a long road home