Текст песни Pandoras Box - Symi Nemesis

I was speaking to my nigga the other day
And we were talking about one of them situations
Where you're debating about opening up or not
And you're just feeling like its one of them pandora's box situations
Like if you do it the risk

I'm thinking fuck life, something I don't understand
Growing up everybody always had a plan
I'm living life like tomorrow don't exist
No dreams for a yard, no dreams for a pad
Dad is begging me is it college or is it rap
I didn't think I would make it to this age like please relax
Maybe I'll be rich maybe I'll have stacks
It might be from trapping, it might be from rap
My mother just called, they prayed for me in church
Not because I'll die, but because I put in work
The Valium did more than any pastor in the church
So what else can I say, I'm praying it does work
I know about the perks, and they ain't coming in short
If only God can judge me, then you know I'm skipping court
I put my faith in God, put my faith in the ports
The same fucking ports that are coming with my weed
I lost the fucking part of me that never gave a fuck
Man I'm feeling to quit the game but I have sacrificed so much
I'm still moving cocky, Cuz I've never been touched
There might be a me, who will take away my luck
Bipolar disorder, all up in my brain
So when I'm rapping on drill, I don't cap I'm insane
And my girl is fucking stressed, she's going through pain
She's begging and pleading for me to never ride again
I said I wouldn't ride, that was a blatant lie
Said I was sitting in a gaff, but I was riding with my knife
I was riding with my knife, I gotta say twice
She wants to read my mind, she knows I need help
She's saying I've been distant babe i'm distant with myself
The emotional part of me has been sitting on a shelf
I was sitting in a trap with my niggas we was fucked
On so many drugs, whilst tryna get wealth
It's not good for my health, But what else can I do
She saying I smoke too much, but I ain't quitting weed for you
Valium helps me cope, weed does too
Grinding up a nug, thinking I need you
4 different people, all inside my head
I'm tryna get this bread, I can never be broke
I'm feeling like a joke, but jokes have a point
So I'm sitting here with slit wrists rolling up a joint