Текст песни Scarred - Toke Wright

If this the hand I was dealt, I'll change my cards
The freedom that they speak just feels so far
I try to disregard all their remarks but embark what they spark
'Cause my life just feels so hard
When I wake to feel so scarred

Jesus always hold me down but for what
I was stuck in a rut. Selling dimes in the cut
With the lean in the cup. Get the Sprite and mix it up
Paranoid 'cause in the game there's nobody to trust
They only care what I wear so I'm feeling like dust
A careless soul in the muck but I kept it on the hush
But I admit it was a rush.
Repping our colors and screaming what up, cuh
But my friend caught some bullets flying
Now his girl is crying
Ah man, this dude is dying.
The only time I waited impatient for the sirens
If karma is real I should've been the one laying
On the ground screaming, bleeding, pleading, even praying
After that I couldn't hear what teachers were saying
I would sit in school swaying like I was impatient
Spending every day looking over my shoulder
My days were getting gray, nights getting colder
The weight on my back feeling like a heavy bolder
It's been years, the frustration still isn't over
My mom got car problems and I wish I could fix it
The moneys down the drain and now it's closer to Christmas
Scared to put even small things on my wishlist
And my dad works so much I don't get any time with him, but uh

If this the hand I was dealt, I'll change my cards
The freedom that they speak just feels so far
I try to disregard all their remarks but embark what they spark
'Cause my life just feels so hard
When I wake to feel so scarred
My life just feels so hard
When I wake to feel so scarred

I remember people telling me that I wouldn't be nothing
Now I fight for something greater above all of their assumptions
I was the one that stayed quiet during all of the discussions
If I tried there'd be a sudden interruption for destruction
I got scars on my face, hands and my arms
But none of those compare to the ones on my heart
When those kids in the gym class tore my life apart
They turned me to an emo kid. I stayed in the dark
Wait, let's rewind the time. Take a trip inside my mind
Get a vision of me flipping out while tripping on the pine
Now I got a question. How would you feel
If you almost OD'd on a few too many pills
What if you never drew steal, still saw a dude killed
And the thought always brought you chills
Plus sold drugs to kids for a new bill
You would say your life is hard and you probably felt scarred, huh

If this the hand I was dealt, I'll change my cards
The freedom that they speak just feels so far
I try to disregard all their remarks but embark what they spark
'Cause my life just feels so hard
When I wake to feel so scarred
My life just feels so hard
When I wake to feel so scarred