Текст песни The Pensive Disarray - Voyager , Daniel Tompkins

I seek to find all the things that I have found, all the times that I have lost, so
I seek to yield to the pressures of today, to the pensive disarray
And I'm still falling, holding onto what I've got

I seek to bring all the gifts of [?] to the ones that I adore, so
I can surround myself with the ones I love, with the ones I trust
And I'm still holding, holding onto what I've got
And I'm still holding, holding onto what I've got

I take the pressure now, I'll take the silence out, I keep believing (I keep believing)
I hold the reason (I hold the reason)
I hold the answer how will I know I rise now, I hold the reason (I hold the reason)
I am deceiving

I hold the
I feel the
And I wonder, I wonder, I can't escape from me again

I breathe the
I feel the
And I wonder, I wonder, I can't escape from me again

Like the silent abode, in the tears I will glow
It's illusion I crave, it's the feeling I savor, and then
Something [?] Into pieces I go
Judging all that I see in the absence of glee and you always say

I seek to find all the things that I have found, all the times that I have lost, so
I seek to yield to the pressures of today, to the pensive disarray
And I'm still holding, holding onto what I've got

I take the pressure now, I'll take the silence out, I keep believing (I keep believing)
I hold the reason (I hold the reason)
I hold the answer how will I know I rise now, I hold the reason (I hold the reason)
I am deceiving (I am deceiving)

I know answer now I feel, I know what you have said is real
And I am suffering again, taking all the pain
I know answer now I feel, I know what you have said is real
And I am suffering again, taking all the pain

I hold the answer how will I know I rise now
What is the reason for this pensive disarray