Текст песни Steady Straight Lights/Sudden Dark Turns - Weerd Science

I've never been normal.
I've always been lost.
Always had a voice in the back of my head that for some reason never shuts off.
Meaning it's never quiet.
Not even a moment of silence.
Not even for a second when I lay my head down and I close my eyelids.
You should try this new diet.
You should really try harder.
You're fraudulent.
You never finish anything, just like your father.
You think you're so clever, don't you?
"The Makeshift Martyr".
What school did you go to?
Oh, that's right. You didn't bother.
Now it bothers you.
Affects every pore, and every molecule.
You're too stupid to see that nobody likes you, that's why you sit alone in solitude.
Although you're aware of your apathy
You manage to hide it fantastically.
Masquerading around like you're happy but in reality you are actually.
Tormented with more attention
Most people would adore the mentions,
But you suffer in silence.
Sit here quiet, dull your senses.
And annul your sentences.
Everything you've ever said.
Your John Cusak.
They want their two dollars
You're better off dead.
Is there no one who can help me?
(Anxiety)
All the things you swore solemnly
(Anxiety)
Even your mom confessed
When it comes to you she's unimpressed.
Somebody please put me out of my misery.

Wait.
You think I wanted it to be this way?
I could be like my high school friends, in jail or passed away.
That's why I keep all the things I think and feel stashed away.
The doctor gives me pills to mask the symptoms, keeps them all at bay.
And I just float through life.
I'm a muted version of me.
I'm more high now that I'm clean than back when I was a junkie.
How does that make sense?
Why is my throat so lumpy?
How come I'm sure that the devil's below me but god couldn't be above me?
I'm an eccentric artist. That's what I tell myself.
But I'm pretty sure that when people meet me they're convinced I'm retarded as hell.
What if I OD'd from 80 MG OC's
And then snort enough cocaine to make a polar bear's nose freeze?
That was the old me.
I swear to god I've changed.
To those that know me well, they'd also tell you I'm not the same.
But it's still in me, and if that switch gets flipped
I'll drag all you motherfuckers back to hell with me.
Is there no one who can help me?
(Anxiety)
All the things you swore solemnly
(Anxiety)
Even your mom confessed
When it comes to you she's unimpressed.
Somebody please put me out of my misery.