Текст песни end my life - craw

Every day I get up why it's like I know I'll end my life
You say that everything's a lie when I bring up my mental right
I told you that I wanna die oh how you said that shit's alright
I said that i was gonna try you said I should wait til the night

There's too much going on inside for me to ever get a grip
I lose my mind and grab a knife I trace my throat then let it rip
Been suicidal my whole life I try to heal with medicine
There's too much shit that's on the line I'm outside heaven let us in

I got so much on my mind I haven't slept for fucking days
I wish that I could I go rewind time before we went our separate ways
You know I'm somewhat hard to find when I'm lost in a fucking maze
I used to think that I was blind I saw that shit was just a phase

I feel so numb when I think about the shit I did
I look so dumb like take a look at the time that I hid
The rope is hung I found a place for me to take the bid
I bite my tongue I been so back and fourth I was a kid

When I got the news that you were gone I never could say bye
And how I had to choose to go move on with you that don't apply
And now I go refuse to be withdrawn to you I won't go lie
I take a couple two's and then I yawn the way I say goodnight

And I don't wanna make this shit too long it's time to wrap it up
I write my wrongs into a fucking song like when is it enough
I don't belong I'm out til dawn I'm out of breath i need a puff
I move along and then I'm gone I pass the test I give up