Текст песни make it through - goodnight lavender

It′s July again
It's been raining since then
Still haven′t found my way
I wish I could retry

I'm terrified
That I lied
When you cried
Wish I died
But the past is in the past
And this sadness always lasts

Tension rising
I feel numb
I don't how I will push through
Unsure if it′s my own fault
And if I′ll make it out alive

But I'm still lost
In the dark
And at what cost
Will I push through?
I′m still lost
On my own
Still I tossed
Those thoughts aside

Day by day
Fighting the urge
At any cost
I'll finish this song
Through and through
I still wonder
If I′ll still stay the same?

But after all
Life will go on
And after all
I'm still on my own

But maybe I can make there
My thoughts are twisted
But I resisted
And maybe life is more than this
Stuck my head
I′d rather be dead

Will I escape this endless dream?
What if I don't even care
My thoughts are blank
I try to move
But it was all an empty vow

Tension rising
I feel numb
I don't how I will push through
Unsure if it′s my own fault
And if I′ll make it out alive

But I'm still lost
In the dark
And at what cost
Will I push through?
I′m still lost
On my own
Still I tossed
Those thoughts aside

Day by day
Fighting the urge
At any cost
I'll finish this song
Through and through
I still wonder
If I′ll still stay the same?

Oh, I'm still lost
On my own
But through the dark
Your hand takes mine

It′s just a spark
You're still alone
But doubts are forming
These walls are falling

Oh, I'm still lost
On my own
But through the dark
Your hand takes mine

"You′ll be okay"
"You′ll be okay"
Was it all worth it?
Was I mistaken?