Lyrics FOOL'S PARADISE - 4ria

Pick apart the vision
Pick apart these writtens
Pick apart everything that I disclose
On the peak of packing
All the things I fashion
All my needs and habits
Deemed too expose
My dreams and my demons
I needed the most
Every season, I'm freezing
But it only snows in the winter
Hindering all of my goals
My very conscience that fathoms
The truth I've been passing
With sprinkles of powders and tablets
These tactics elaborate
It is too late to tap out
I've been crashing
Can't black out without any xanax
I'm asking my dealer like I'm just a madman
Masking my pain like disguising my face
With a cloak I can't ever contain
All my hope down the drain
Like the soap
Used to scrub woes
Off my wit
Or the scars on my wrist
I could go parlay these bars
About starting self harm
Or discard all that shit
And go live from a place of my truth
To embrace
All my distaste for you dudes
Reflects too in this case
In the way that I hate this
Like losing a race
Or a bet that I'd prove you to shame
Feeling so used, I've been stained
So sometimes I feel like I'm losing
Or I just feel nothing but pain

Everyday
I want to fade away
Can't put my faith in face
Afraid my fate will break
And there ain't no escape
All these hopeless takes suggest
My hope is draped in a cloak of shame
From issues that I never overcame
Bitch, it's hard to live through
Without noble aims
Am I supposed to stay?
Who's there to blame?
With this woeful change
As I form my rage
Everyday
I want to fade away
Can't put my faith in face
Afraid my fate will break
And there ain't no escape
All these hopeless takes suggest
My hope is draped in a cloak of shame
From issues that I never overcame
Bitch, it's hard to live through
Without noble aims
Am I supposed to stay?
Who's there to blame?
With this woeful change
As I form my rage

Suicide
To subdue my mind
Is it the truth I find or just futile lies?
Self abuse to enlighten
Illusions are heightened
Nothing to do, I'm so frightened
By the news
I liken to doom
At the height when I drew my excitement
Tighten the noose, I'm still fighting
Brutal violence, crucial timing
Glued to my mind
When I'm losing the vibrance
Flew through signs
That proved my mind was crucified
Utilized the Lucifer on lucid lines
Human kind is abusive
I'm used to trying
To abide by the rules is a stupid crime
Who am I?
By the fuel that induces rhymes
To refine
All the truces I unified
Through the tide
I consumed what I knew would fry
My brain and my thoughts in my frugal mind
I hate these bittys
And I hate the city
I hate my body
Can't see nobody
Bitch, I hate my face
And I could tell they probably
Would drain my strength
This is my deathly folly
At this rate, I'll stay
Self conscious, counting pills
Place the things that would make me jolly
Can't take the pain
Afraid this shit will drown me
In a lake of shame
Killing hope, so calmly

Everyday
I want to fade away
Can't put my faith in face
Afraid my fate will break
And there ain't no escape
All these hopeless takes suggest
My hope is draped in a cloak of shame
From issues that I never overcame
Bitch, it's hard to live through
Without noble aims
Am I supposed to stay?
Who's there to blame?
With this woeful change
As I form my rage