Lyrics Why? - Anonymous

Hey dad been a minute since I've heard from you
Haven't got not one single word from you
You know man to man so we can touch base
The feeling I have for you right now is love hate
Even though I love you I hate what you've become
You live your life and forget about your son
You weren't always like this cause back when I was young
In my eyes to me you always were the one
I would give it up to the one I looked up to
Cause growing up I knew you had it rough to
Dirt poor in a household of at least a dozen
Your father walked out left you basically with nothing
That must have been hard that must of left a scar
Damn that's a burden that you carry on your shoulders
Now I understand why you crossed the border once I got older
To run away from a life of pain
But since then your whole life has changed
Cause my mom made your life beyond your wildest dreams
She made you a man by letting go of childish things
Behind every great man is a great woman
But you ruined that cause you love to chase women
I know it's not my business but dad I got to witness
All my mother's pain hoping one day you would change
But you didn't cause today you still remain the same
This ain't to disrespect you it's only to correct you
Been bottling this up had to get it off my chest to
No matter what dad I'll never say fuck you
Cause no matter what dad I'll always love you but
Why? Can't you be sincere?
Dad why can't be sincere tell me
Why? Do you feed my fears?
And why you got to fees my fears tell me
Why? Do you take me for granted?
Dad why you got to take me for granted tell me
Why? Is your heart so slanted?
Why's it so slanted dad it's so slanted
My worst fear is that I grow up to be like you
It hurts me when they tell I look like you
The image getting clearer when I look inside the mirror
But every time I always start to tear up
Cause it makes me wonder on where my dad went
Like what happened? We use to always laugh and
Have the best times man I miss it with a passion
I'm asking God why you got to be selfish?
You never help every time I feel helpless
Your not around cause your nowhere to be found
Never thought you do the same thing that your old man would do
But you abandoned us like he abandoned you
I know it's not something that you planned to do
But I'm having trouble on trying to understand it to
Cause you left when we needed you the most
When my mother passed we were grieving there alone
I know your always working on the weekdays
And on the weekends your heading out to TJ
Thinking to myself damn what a father
With a girl that's almost the same age as your daughter
You call it love but me man it's lust
I'll be the first to say it and make a stand for us
It took me these last few years being fatherless
To know how important that a father is
This ain't to disrespect you it's only to correct you
Been bottling this up had to get It off my chest to
No matter what dad I'll never say fuck you
Cause no matter what dad I'll love you but
Why? Can't you be sincere?
Dad why can't be sincere tell me
Why? Do you feed my fears?
And why you got to fees my fears tell me
Why? Do you take me for granted?
Dad why you got to take me for granted tell me
Why? Is your heart so slanted?
Why's it so slanted dad it's so slanted