Lyrics Trials and Tribulations - B3ric

Go on
Explain yourself
I've been through a whole lot, a lot many battles
Since I've turned 18 I've rode through many saddles
I got my dad's shoes, it's sort of ironic
Thought we were in good soil but it was hydroponic
Modern family dynamics thrown out the room
Might as well call it dynamite wait for it to boom
Wondering if my mama kick me for wealth
Everyday there's a death or threat with every breath
Who could I run to while watchin' my step
I could be next I don't want to, got my strap prep'
Say it all I want, you don't know what I mean
You don't have my life and the things I've seen
Computers don't have my level of telling tales
So let me tell ya a tale yall know too well
Broken family split had me in disbelief
Going to the same church with different beliefs
Still at home with my mama no violence in the dome
Papa got an apartment no longer a part of the home
Has a brother with rumors and drinks alone
And you wonder why emotions may be prone
So many celebs, relatives, with delvish, works
Crime, scandalous, stealing, just for, simple perks
It would be lyin' to say I ain't been tested
And so far my score hasn't been bested
Not well rested, fire tests for pure gold
So I know it's genuine and I'm not too young or old
Too many stories told, heard before it happened
So what would've happened if I ain't continue rappin'
What if I reacted to friends and haters alike
License at 16, employed, with no soul or, mic
Now 18, I get attention 22 not my mind but a deal
At a point in time cuz only real recognizes real
So I realize these parents are the worst generation
Not caring about kids of the home or nation
Don't know how to read a clock but know tiktok
So when the tiking tok stops, who found the rock
The rock to build on its either growth and decay
It's a lifelong process that is worked on everyday
So I'll tell you where I've been
Talking with men about whats above men
Evangelized with those men they true friends
Not into the normal they not into any of the trends
Not bullies but they wantin' me to be alive
Proud of a holy drop they'll want my number five
That would be my new two, my two cents
My new flagerance of oil, I got my two scents
Inna world where satan smells shoulders of others
I guess I really found my new brothers
Understanding situations happily give me rides
Since we all mature and on the same sides
They know the struggles, been and beat addictions
Without them I might've never got out of attractions
Probably would be back to the bullies in disguise
Probably would listen to all the corporate lies
Still it ain't ever easy when you on the right road
Knowin' God expressin' him hard with a heavy load
Still wanted me to change my style and he assist
Didn't kill me because he wants you on the list
But if I died you would've seen me (fell)(in)
And if I died now I'd go to-
How are you going to explain yourself?
Start to decide
You're here now after the rewind of your life
But if you were to die now I never knew you