Lyrics Blurry - Crucifix_X1

Billie Eilish makes me happier then ever
So when I'm under the weather
Don't smile at me cause you should know better
Then to test me when I'm not all put together
I look in the mirror and say I don't wanna be you anymore
Fully awake at half past 4 in the morn

Crying in front of my reflection
I'm my own hostage
That shit gives me a bellyache
Giving me all sorts of problems
It's making me nauseous
While they all just watch me burn
Some people try to be copycats
Try to make it my concern
You try to put your two cents in, but you need to wait your turn

They invite me to the parties because it's in my nature
To be the spot light
I'm their party favour
They might be in danger
Cause whenever the beat drops
Out comes a stranger
Gone to the dark side like darth Vader
Cause I don't think they wanna deal with my behaviour

All the girls give me their oceans eyes Hope to get a prize
Knowing that I'm way to high
For them to be recognized
Some say my boy is a better rapper then you are
But I know fewer, people who can shoot ya
Better then I can
Call me the bad guy, but I spend
Time inside to mind bend

And it's my strange addiction.
To perform this crucifixion. Whenever I get to blitzing
Send them away tell them to listen Before I go ripping
Heads off when I start the dissing
So when it happens might have to bury a friend
Pop a xanny when the depression doesn't wanna end
Turns out it was a lost cause from the start
Everybody dies, been torn apart
But it's not my responsibility, what happens when I get overheated
Therefore I am not conscious of my actions when it keeps on repeating
Your power dwindles, when evil is in my future
No more getting older for you loser

You should see me in a crown
Pull out the 808's all of them are going down
Then I say goodbye, when they start to drown

And I wish that they give me that oxytocin
Eyes wide open
My mind awoken
From all this negativity i'm the chosen
One that lingers the omens
To send them forever running faster like pumas their slogan

They'll leave in a hurry
Guess life is a little blurry