Lyrics Going Through It - Cryptic Wisdom

Somebody better come get me, cause I ain't got a lot to lose
What I've been through, sort of distorted my views
I ain't really got a clue, what I'ma do
Give me the help that I need, I try and keep it in the booth
But between me and you I feel the pressure of all of it
Telling me I've gotta use, what am I doing
Ain't got a fam, ain't got a home, ain't got a plan
Ain't got a single thing that I've been doing right
But I don't really think you'd understand
Cause on the surface, everything's perfect
Yeah, I've been making money, rubber bands
But I've been trying to be somebody other than me
And I don't remember who I am
I don't remember what it's like to love
Cause when I felt it I was young
I just wrote Dominique a fucking email
What am I doing I'm dumb
I had a girl, we had a dream
But I was weak, now it is done
I found out my ex was having a baby, crazy
That one left me kinda bummed
Should've been mine, it should've been mine
Are you out your mind, boy
She ain't thought about you in ten years
She's settled down and doing fine
And I know I ain't gotta remind you
What it would do to you when you would find
Another excuse to get in the noose and give her your time

I know that everything I'm going through has got a reason
When you're going through it that's all that you can believe in
You may not deserve it, no, but maybe it was needed
Gotta keep your head up if you really wanna beat it
I know that everything I'm going through has got a reason
When you're going through it that's all that you can believe in
You may not deserve it, no, but maybe it was needed
Gotta keep your head up if you really wanna beat it

I been living a lie, but bringing it by though
And I'm willing to die, for the rhythm that I know
Cause I don't like change, and I won't behave
I got nothing but destruction on my brain
And you might know me, or maybe not I don't give a damn
I'm lonely, and I don't know how to be a different man
I'm the one that made this so bad
Common sense, I been missing that
In between I need time for me
And it's time for me to go and get you back
I feel for the kids the most
Cause they don't really get to know
What's going on between us both
All they see is we ain't close
All this discussion in private
Suddenly I'm about to be a ghost
I don't even know where to go
But tell them I love 'em when I hit the road
I love you and you'll always be my best friend
Here's to a new beginning, let the rest end
I thank you for your love and all your lessons
I will never be the same again

I've been feeling all good
Been feeling all right
I'm feeling all good until I'm not alright
Then it gets bad for me
Then when I'm tripping it gets bad for me
Bad for me (for me)