Lyrics Loss - DP
So
I've
been
gone,
For
a
little
while
um
and
many
people
probably
know
The
reason
why
because
it's,
kind
of
been
everywhere.
Um
but
my
dad
passed
away
recently
Um
it's
been
almost
two
weeks
now
since
he
passed,
And
I've
just
been
trying
to
sort
of
Grapple
with
a
lot
of
thoughts
about
About
the
situation
and
trying
to
process
it
properly
and
make
sure
That
I'm
taking
the
right
time
and
right
Avenues
to
kind
of
get
my
head
around
it.
Um
because
people
always
say
the
grieving
Process
is
something
different,
for
everybody.
Um,
and
it
is
but
I
never
really
had
to
go
through
something
Like
this
before,
I've
never
lost
someone
so
close
to
me,
before
And
it's
a...
It's
a
really
weird,
surreal,
Feeling
because
you
hear
about
stuff
like
this
from
maybe
Some
of
your
friends
or
you
see
it
online
or
you
see
somebody...
That
you
follow
on
social
media
or
something
Talk
about
it
but
it
doesn't
really
hit
you...
How...
How
intense
that
is
until
it
happens
to
you,
And
I
don't
think
I'm
ready
to
like
jump
back
Into
videos,
or
anything
like
that
anytime
soon...
Um,
I
like
I
do
miss
streaming
and
I
do
miss
making
videos
but
Obviously
it's
not
my
priority
right
now,
Having
something
like
this
happen
is
really...
Recontextualizing
a
lot
of
stuff
for
me,
Um,
I've
been
doing
a
lot
of
thinking
And
a
lot
of
reflecting
and
a
lot
of...
Re-prioritizing
trying
to
figure
out
what
exactly
Is
it
that
I
want...
In
my
life,
at
this
moment
Um...
Because
losing
your
dad
is
a
weird
uh
Like
facing
your
mortality,
I
think
You
see
a
lot
of
yourself
In
your
parents...
Um,
so
when
something
like
that
happens
it
hits
you
extra
hard
and
Trying
to
figure
out
where
I'd
fit,
EVERYTHING
that
has
just
kind
of
been
on
my
Mind
and
what
I
want
to
do
going
forward,
basically.
To
Any
of
you
who
showed
support
or
any
of
you
who
Sent
me
messages
or
anybody
who
was
sending
any
sort
of...
Thoughts
or
love
my
way,
and
my
family's
way
during
this
time,
I
really
appreciate
it
thank
you,
It
was
very
very
sweet
and
kind
of
you
to
do.
To
Any
of
you
who
posted
memes
about
it,
and
posted
uh,
Negative
stuff
about
it
you're
absolute
scum
and
I
[Blurred:
Fucking]
hate
you,
because
you
made
something
that
was
hard...
So
much
harder
to
go
through.
Um,
and
being
a
person
of
influence
online,
It's
sort
of
hard
to
avoid
a
lot
of
things,
Um,
and
it's
hard
to
go
through
something
like
this
knowing
that
so
Many
people
are
around,
and
so
many
people
know
who
you
are,
And
so
many
people
want
information,
And
so
many
prying
eyes
on
things
but
thankfully,
Most
people
were
very
kind,
And
very
sincere
and
genuine
about
it
so
thank
you
I'm
not
gonna
share
too
much
about
what
Happened
and
anything
got
to
do
with
my
family
or...
Anything
private
like
that
because
I
just
don't
think
the
Internet
needs
to
know
I
think
that,
that's
going
to
stay
with
us,
Um,
the
only
thing
I
will
say
is
that
because
of
this
sort
of
current
Climate
that
we're
in
right
now
we,
Me
and
my
brother
weren't
even
able
to
go
home
for
the
funeral,
We
had
to...
[Chuckle]
sit
at
home
and
watch
it
over
the
internet...
Which
was
still,
I'm
glad
we
were
able
to
do
that,
at
least.
It
absolutely
sucks
that
we
couldn't
go
there,
we
couldn't
be
there,
We
couldn't
be
with
our
family,
Because
of
that's
going
on
in
the
world
right
now
and
It's
important
to
take
that
seriously
of
course,
but...
Uh,
a
selfish
side
of
me
was
[Chuckle]
kind
of
annoyed
with
that,
But
at
least
we
got
to
see
it
online
and
at
least
we
got
to
pay
our
Respects
that
way
and
get
some
closure
that
way
Which
I
think
was
desperately
needed
and
it
was...
Super
hard
but...
I
think
at
the
end
of
the
day
it
was
Important
to
go
through
that
um,
And
just
connect
with
family
and
talk
about
And
share
stories
like
that
which
was
really
nice
Um,
I
kind
of
wanna
share
some
stuff
about
my
dad
Uh,
the
way
he
lived
his
life
because...
I
realized
that
I
didn't
really
talk
About
him
all
that
much,
on
my
channel...
He
was
a
really
hard-working
man,
he
worked...
So
hard
all
day,
when
I
was
a
kid
Um,
and
I
always
admired
that
about
him
He
always
seemed
so
strong,
so
dependable,
so
respected,
He
worked
so
hard
for
our
family
to
provide
and
there's
seven
in
my
Family
total
so
it
was
a
pretty
big
family
and
he
Worked
his
ASS
off
to
provide
for
our
family
and...
I...
I
didn't
tell
him
that
as
a
kid
but
I
am
super
grateful
for
The
amount
of
effort
he
put
in
to
keep,
our
family
going,
and...
He
he
was
an
older
man,
he
was
85
almost
when
he
died
so
he
was...
I
was
always
kid
who
had
a
much
older
dad,
My
dad
was
as
old
as
some
as
my
friends
granddad's,
So
it
was
a
little
different
for
me,
Because
my
dad
had
already
retired
by
the
time
I
was...
Like
hitting,
before
I
was
hitting
my
teens
even,
So
my
dad
was
always
at
home
and
he
was
like
the
caretaker
at
Home
then
and
he
would
always
cook
me
dinner,
after
school...
And
I
would
always
have
potato
waffles
and
fish
fingers
for
any
Irish
Or
English
or
people
who
know
what
that
means
[Chuckle],
I
would
always
have
that
almost
every
day
after
school
my
dad
would
Cook
it
for
me,
And
no
one
cooked
fish
fingers
as
good
as
my
dad
did...
Um,
and
I
would
always
have
that
after
school,
and
he...
He
took
care
of
me
because
I
was
the
first
to
come
home,
At
that
point
because
my,
My
older
siblings
were
either
working
or
living
somewhere
else...
Or
they
were
in
a
higher
grade
than
me
so
they
came
home
later
from
School,
but
I
always,
Vividly
remember
those
times
when
I
came
home
and
it
was
just
me
and
My
dad
in
the
kitchen,
And
we
would
chat
a
little
bit
about
what
happened
in
school,
And
those
were
always
super
fond
memories,
And
then
something
else
that
I
always
remembered
fondly...
When
lost
came
out,
The
TV
show
which
was
like
my
favorite
TV
show
Of
all
time,
when
I
was
growing
up
probably...
Probably,
still
is,
I
think
that
a
lot
of
the
stuff
that
I
like
in
TV
And
stuff
came
from
that
show
but,
I
remember
that
came
out,
And
we
had
no
idea
what
it
was
but
me
and
my
dad
sat
down
because
There
was
nothing
else
on
TV
one
night
and
watched
the
first
two
Episodes,
and
we
got
enthralled
with
it
from
then,
And
every
week
that
an
episode
of
lost
came
on
me
and
my
dad
would
Sit
down
together
and
watch
it
for
almost
I
think
the
entire
first
Season,
and
most
of
the
second
we
got
to
do
that
because
by
the
Time
the
second
season
came
out
I
was
heading
off
to
college...
And
we
couldn't
really
watch
it
together
as
much,
Um,
but
I
always
fondly
remember
those
sessions
of
watching
lost
Together,
and
we
would
theorize
about
what
was
going
on
and
he
would
Ask
me
questions
and
I
would
pick
up
on
stuff
that
he
wasn't
really
Paying
attention
to,
And
I
would
always
be
able
to
explain
it
to
Him,
and
it
was
just
such
a
good
time,
so...
It's
those
types
of
things
I'm
trying
to
remember
now,
Uh,
after
he's
gone
to...
Keep
him
in
my
mind.
So
I
think
what
I'm
gonna
try
and
Do
going
forward,
in
my
life,
is
to...
Live
by
some
of
the
core
tenets
that
he
taught
me
growing
up,
But
also
to
live
a
life
that
he
would
be
proud
of,
And
to
live
his
sort
of
legacy
through
me,
And
carry
it
on
and
teach
anybody
who's
willing
to
listen
about
my
Dad
and
what
he
taught
me,
And
maybe
if
I
ever
have
kids
someday
I
can
teach
them...
Stuff
like
that
and
just
further
that
legacy
on
as
well.
Because
I
didn't
get
to
be
there,
at
the
end,
But
I
think
that
I
can
carry
him
with
me
throughout
my
life
Every
day,
it's
much
harder
to
do
than
I
thought
it
would
be,
Um,
but
I'm
gonna
[Clears
Throat]
keep
Grieving
in
my
own
ways,
I'm
gonna
keep
uh
Processing
it...
I'm
going
to
come
back
Uh...
When
I
feel...
More
ready
and
more
Engaging
and...
In
a
much
better
headspace
but
I've
been
Doing
some
soul
searching,
and
journaling,
and...
Just
meditating
on
things
I've
been
trying
to
like
Read
some
stuff
a
bit
more,
and
just
do
things
that
are...
Healthy
for
my
brain,
I
think,
Um,
but
I
do,
I
do
want
to
get
back
in
a
game
with
my
Friends
maybe
not
like
stream
it
or
make
videos
out
of
it
right
now,
Um,
but
I
do
miss
my
friends
as
well,
online,
And
playing
games
with
them
so
you
might
Catch
me
somewhere
else
rather
than
right
here,
Um,
but
I'll,
I'll
be
back
whenever
I
feel
like
I'm
good
and
ready
however...
However
long
that
actually
takes,
But
uh
thank
you
guys
for
your
understanding
and...
Your
respect
during
this
time
because...
It's,
it's
hit
me
harder
than
I
thought
it
would,
Um
that
might
sound
like
a
really
weird
thing
to
say,
But...
I
don't
know
I
don't
know
where
my
Brains
are
right
now
So
maybe
I
should
just
end
the
video
here,
Uh,
thank
you
for
listening,
and
understanding,
and...
I'll
see
you
guys
whenever.
— Jackspedicey
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2 Rose
3 No Names
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