Lyrics Amazingly Blind On Drugs - DeezNuts

If god give me breath for 20 more years
I see myself changing the world
Because my thought patterns are so
Opposite of what's the norm
So I would have to change the world
Or have to be changed by the world

Sometimes I look up to the sky
And I feel so lost it hurts
My sense of pride is tossed in dirt
Why am I walkin earth
Cuz my convictions say a lot about my conscious search
But my addiction's just
A constant nonsense on this curse
And all of my friends have gotten beyond it
But I don't seem to want it
I go and keep reconjuring
All of the fiendish scenes
That haunt him
It's like I fall back
Once I see achievements
Creepin on in
Give it all that
And I flee
Cuz I don't believe I'm promised
And all of it must be what god thinks
I'll be receiving to be
Some structure of love
But always ends up just bleeding
Leavin me weak
Repeatin the scenes of fuckin it up
Once I've defeated the beast
And I've suffered enough by breathin You'd think it'd be easy
To leave in this grief
Be done with this substance
Cuz it sucks
When something's eatin at me
And encompass a lust
To see some justice
And be clean and complete
But this is how the fuck my life is
It's just a suicidal search
For where the pipe is
And as I write this
I speak the truth that this life gives
In hopes that you don't misconstrue
The buke or what the hype is
I'm not a maniac
I'm mangled by the chain reactions
Leapin out from every angle
Bein out here chasin baggies
Beat into my cranial
By evil clouds
That place these passions
Reasoning with demons, like
I need it now
Incase me captive
It's no wonder why I'm lookin like I'm sunburned
I been losin time so fuckin long
En route to find the spun herd
So I can keep a crew so high
That underneath my thumbs hurt
Cuz their moving like some puppets
Wit a noose that's tied to unearth
Where's the cash
Burn em for a fat stack
Serve em up some cut
And reassure em
It's some gas twack
Pull off without a thought
To even go and glance back
Like Man, I wish one of these cats would blast gats
Cuz I'm completely lost
And seem to keep a stance that
Just seems to have me beatin off
I'm in a trance trapped
But Mariah needs me to try
Or at least be a viable piece to rely on
And seat by her side
Cuz the days you were gone I had cried
Uninspired and weak to the times you completely
Inspired me
Used to remind myself of that sweet little child
That I couldn't speak
Ended in denial
Wishing to turn back time to get by you to smile and see
The reason I search is my teenager's worth
More to me if I'm clean and I'm being observant
I mean cuz Ive hurt so much needed her worse
So my life doesn't stink and I see has a purpose
It's like I might as well embrace the shit
I'm living life in hell
With all my failed relationships
And all I make of this time shelled
Is I ain't equipped
I'm sick of givin this strife
And my mind's telling me
Make it end