Lyrics Runaway - Emiar

Do I feel bad, or I'm blessed too
An insomniac, 'tryna' sleep through
All the things that, obsessed my mind
Gonna pour Jack for the rewind
Sent the invites for the devils I
Locked myself, singing farewell
In a mansion without doorbell
My dispassion - is a key to satisfaction
And I guess
I'm a little dead-hearted
A little crazy
Should we get back to the point where it all started
It's amazing
I keep gazing through storm and see a desperate bird escaping another form of containment
But I pray for her to sing for me again
While still aiming

What if I, what if I wanted to break
Choke little bird, hang it up on a stake
I'm singing alone as I walk on my own
Searching for place where I truly belong
What if I, what if I wanted to break
Choke little bird, hang it up on a stake
I'm singing alone as I walk on my own
Searching for place where I truly belong

Are you real, or am I just dreaming
Thinking out loud, feeling spring
Beaming in my heart but nah
It's an illusion concealing
Winter
I'm willing to filter all the negativity
Seal it under the pigskin but reality
Is a killer of dreams
So here's my middle finger
To the world and those who betrayed me
So hate me greatly berate me
Innately hateful - is what the majority are
They obey the authorities, huh?
But I ain't gonna listen, I keep truly missing
In my reminiscence the days when I'm a child, living in a less twisted
World, a so-called utopia, no humans allowed with their phobias, I said
Smoke that opium - a drug that gives you petroleum to keep walking the den
Facing hallucinations, you're another patient, can't withstand temptations
Isolating from salvation and diving deeper into depression
Amen
The Lord is dead, no issues of fact
We're alone, simple as that
Though my guardian angel is laughing in front of a danger
Athena, I love you for ages
Despite all the outrageous changes
Push you against my hips just little closer, I'll kiss you by the lips
Grab me by the shoulders, music's getting lower
This is not for real, I am just a loner
I've made up ideal, my sickness's never over

What if I, what if I wanted to break
Choke little bird, hang it up on a stake
I'm singing alone as I walk on my own
Searching for place where I truly belong
What if I, what if I wanted to break
Choke little bird, hang it up on a stake
I'm singing alone as I walk on my own
Searching for place where I truly belong