Lyrics Shell Shock - Goodsleeper

I never remember the days blended together
My pains never been mended
The same fuckin repetitive phase
Wonder how much I can take
Wanna examine my pain
Look at them setting the stage
Cameras and compliments, fake
All of my friends had been made tough
Yet I just saw them all crumble and break in an invisible maze
Bullets and mines in our face, fuck
Wanna go home from the war, but the war is over, I'm still in a cage

Mind lost in the Shell shock
Red dots, turn to holes, turn to blood gust
6 days, no sleep, Hostile thoughts
Mind lost in the Shell shock
No sleep till the bombs and the guns stop
Forgot what's the goal, what's my soul cost?
6 months in the war made my hope rust
Mind lost in the Shell shock
We just some kids, they set us up
No future that they promised us
6 years and it stops for the lucky ones

Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants
Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants

Pawn of war, don't worry bout the trauma
Keep the score goin till your shifts over
Pray to your God life goes back to normal but when you get home still feel like a soldier
Nowhere feels like home anymore when you still feel like you're runnin from everything you saw
Blood, gore, dead friends, faces everywhere you go
Blood hands, your soul won't forgive when its sold

Mind lost in the Shell shock
Red dots, turn to holes, turn to blood gust
6 days, no sleep, Hostile thoughts
Mind lost in the Shell shock
No sleep till the bombs and the guns stop
Forgot what's the goal, what's my soul cost?
6 months in the war made my hope rust
Mind lost in the Shell shock
We just some kids, they set us up
No future that they promised us
6 years and it stops for the lucky ones

Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants
Only doin what my leader wants
Only doin what the devil wants

War came with me to the ward
Hear the screaming down the hall
Bullet holes won't heal, I can still feel em all
Heaven cannot hear me
Hell I'm livin: inescapable
I can't Trust these faces anymore
No rest left from these shakes till I hit the floor
No medication can make me normal again
Can't break fight or flight, keep a knife by my bed
I'll brace for life every night till I'm dead

I Only did what my leader wanted
I Only did what the devil wanted
I Only did what my leader wanted
I Only did what the devil wanted
I Only did what my leader wanted
I Only did what the devil wanted
I Only did what my leader wanted
I Only did what the devil wanted