Lyrics 58 Pills - Her Ex

I've seen the worst of you
Guess what I'd still pick you
No one loved you more in life
She wasn't strong enough
I thought she was strong enough
I thought she was strong enough

Get to the hospital quick
I'm on my way
She just took 58 pills of some Tylenol
I'm just praying for her to be safe
I just went over 100, the cops pulled me over
The hurt is written on my face
They let me go even though I should've been arrested
No misdemeanor, I got an infraction
I prayed to God with my all
And saw how some of my actions were flawed
I saw how I fought fire with fire
Her flames were Zuko but mine were much hotter, Azula
I should've forgiven sooner but I enjoyed
Being a ruler
Plus I felt like it was her turn to suffer
I tried to get even
I should've just loved her
And burdens were falling on me
How could I live with the guilt
I'm the last one she talked to and now she's ODing on pills
All of her family would blame me and I'd blame myself
And I know that I shouldn't but I know myself
Man I crumbled and cried with my mom by my side
Man, I reached out to God, it was no time to hide
Look, the devil is real and it morphed into 58 pills
And it morphed into me and the anger I felt
My words were swords from the daggers of hell and her skin was just paper
I wanted some justice but God told me later
Would read the Bible but run from the Savior
I knew what to do but my pain told me hate her

I can't neglect God's teachings she was trying so hard to follow God's path
And I was being hypocritical and not following God's path
And then acting like I was the saint and she wasn't
And that's wrong of me, that's wrong of me
I took advantage of a woman and then now she may never come back
God, please, God
Please, oh please
She's a good girl, God
Give her some more time on this earth

Have you ever done these things
Traveled to Ireland, see the Eiffel Tower
Inspire the poets and writers, the Van Gogh Museum or any Museum
Tell your life story with no interference
A Sakura tree, when the beauty just peaks
Or a Japanese sauna a concert of Lan Del Rey
What about helping a child who ain't got a father or a mother
Never felt love even when she was younger
Attended school but got bullied, abused
Not only physically, sexually too
Needed someone who related like you
But you tried to leave at 20 years of life
Now she won't grow up with no one by her side
Thought we were supposed to foster a couple kiddos
How could I do that on my own
When you the one who planted the idea in my dome

Now you scared of dying, repenting
The charcoal you drinking is making you throw up
Used to seek pain with the blade and the cuts that it made
Now you're going through worse than emotional pain
See your life drifting, you hate your decision
You cling on to life, attempted suicide
Doctors don't know if they can save your life
You call out to God, cause I'm not by your side
I'm downstairs, won't let me see you tonight
Called the nurse about eight different times
Till she got pissed and hung up the line
Called the next day about six and nine
I was so scared that they'd tell me you died
But I got the best news, you would be alright
I got the best news, you would be alright