Lyrics Mourning Song - Holding Absence

I was thinking of leaving
With the world placed firmly at my feet
Nothing left to gain, nothing left to give you
If I could simply stop breathing
Maybe then the ache would go away
Nowhere left to run, nothing left to run from
When you looked me in the eyes
How could I have known that, that would be your final goodbye?
How is it fair I must live this life
Without your infinite light and guidance?
How is it fair you had no choice of when you left?
And now we all live in the shadow of it
In your slumber, you've shown me
All the little things that you're deprived
Of every single thing that I took for granted
Now, I sit here in mourning
Knowing that you left while you were lost
And now I'm petrified of leaving before I belonged
My entire life is shrouded now
That death's black wing eclipsed your sunshine
And if I have to live for you in spite of all
The pain that I might feel that I go through
That's something that I swear to do
How is it fair I must live this life
Without your infinite light and guidance?
How is it fair you had no choice of when you left?
And now we all live in the shadow of it
There is beauty in any loss that teaches you a lesson
All the beautiful friends we leave behind without ever forgetting
Though life will move without you, I will never move along
If this is my last chance to sing you to sleep
There is beauty in any loss that teaches you a lesson
All the beautiful friends we leave behind without ever forgetting
Though life will move without you, I will never move along
If this is my last chance to sing you to sleep, then let this be my mourning song