Lyrics Stayed Strong - JaeTwoThree

Why the fuck do I stay so gone
Cause the pain been here to damn long
Only direction is right when I'm wrong
In this life boy you weak or you strong
I love being all by my lonely and matching myself, cause only in I who I trust
Copped me a zip and said fuck it and went made music on behalf of the buds
And I'm still on tequila when I'm kickin this pimpin
Niggas knowin ima so I'm never in they mentions
Shit be gettin heavy, but I been fit, when we talkin bout fake og spittin out realest
Trouble climbing out the hole like the shit 30 ft tall
But I cannot stop going naw nigga, not at all
Cause momma ain't raise no hoe nigga
And I know that prolly scare her cause she knows how much its true
Life is such a movie, dont role switch
Cause on the daily hella actors dont make the next shoot
Take a shot of this here truth
But only valid when I'm vibing in the booth, on my madre I be stu
Uh huh uh huh yessir that's word
Since them days I was playin on the motherfucking curb
But what about them days tryin not to lose my sane
All the bickering gettin on my nerves
Lot of times wanna say fuck it, buts that's anotha dam discussion for right
now she gon get another fur
Hella shit make grrr
I'm talkin bout them times I was hearing when my family wasnt doing so riight
Back to back losing folks, bills up to our throats
Like the motherfucking table ain't deal our cards right
Praying every damn night
Cause this shit here ain't right
To numb up the pain mix the grimace wit Sprite
Everytime that I let someone in, they just faux when its fin
Tryna take away my lovin from deep within
But a fool for the love is a fool with a drug
And I can't get addicted to another soul again
On the road to recovery, be real if you loving me, cause my mind be to gone
Wanna be where my cousins, but the sinning is all I breath
He two l's gon make room for me
How the fuck did I stay so strong when the pain been here to damn long
Kept grinding switching negatives to positives, and riding on my motherfucking own
And I'm still healing

How can I heal it baby
I don't think yall can feel me lately

Went thru probation and cases and tempting sensations, seducing another mans hoe
Just to get thru all the crazy, bullshit on the daily, before and after its pussy and dro
Be feeling like big krit my life is a eq, so I'm on the scale with these highs and these lows
But knowing fasho, my mental ain't never in gyms but off muscle my mental gon grow
Should I just pull a kd and just leave all my hittas
Gold state of my mind when I'm winning
Fuck it I'll pull a lebron and head back to the town, clutch like kyrie in that final
I be feelin like Dame but my triple O different, out in ogden it's official
Through the times and the rhymes you gon know how I'm feelin
And know exactly how I did it
I'm talkin young movin from homes
Hanging with cuzzo and finding his chrome
Did I smoke at age or 5 or remember it wrong
Damn, where some of these memories go
Kansas city had a young feeling alone
My daddy was there, but he still didnt know me
Just glad all my cousins became all my homies
I went back to the U shoulda stayed a lil longer
My cousin still fucked up, he still in and out of a cell
Causing my grandparents hell
Fast forward, grindin and tryna do well for my self
I promise I need it its theirs
Keep going, court dates and funerals granny 6 feet
Had me feelin like I wasnt there
I'm in the living room, I'm drunk and im lashing out
Grandpa tryna tell me that its gon be ok
I got up that mornin smokin feelin like lisa
Need directions for gettin through pain
Her blood in my veins
Plus my granny was thug and my mind you cant change
I lost my daddy, and fell, but fuck it got up, how else lessons gon flow in my brain
Yall could count me out, 10 times, but I'm still on my ten countin thangs
Women be lying, the love they denying, but like lito ain't beefing bout shit
Ain't even gon disclose all the foes chicks hit
Knowing even on the low that my key still fit
I got thru shit, focused on my son cause he was the key to it all
I'm on helmets and stayin strong for him, til I get that heavenly call
Tryna live through it all

How can I heal it baby
I dont think yall can feel me lately
But this how I been lately, stay strong