Lyrics Cross My Heart - JayteKz

Twenty-four years old what a blessing
And to be honest I ain't think that I would be alive
All these years I would suffer from depression
And many nights I would contemplate my suicide
I was hiding so much pain and resentment
To see my tears you would really have to scrutinize
But it's time for me to tell you my confession
And it's time for me to heal cause I'm bruised inside
Twenty-three was my last year
I was certain I was bound to take my life away
I swear to god I saw my last day so damn clear
I thought that I would never get to see the light of day
I was hanging by a thread
And every single breath was a moment I would dread
Although I was breathing I still felt like I was dead
Wishing that my eyes remained sealed when I slept
Goodbye
I was searching for an exit sign
On a waiting list for death I was next in line
Sick and tired of my life I was ending mine
And no longer could I fight for my peace of mind
But I thought about my family
Thought about my future and the blessings that it can bring
So I held on to faith
I prayed every night that one day I'll be safe

Cross my heart and hope that I will live another day
And if I fall will you pick me up when I'm stuck in rain?
Oh can I count on you to guide me when I'm lost inside?
Oh can I count on you to find me through my darkest nights?

Oh I, I, I
I, I, I
I, I, I, I
I don't know if I can take this
I don't know if I can have enough patience
Oh why, why, why
Why do I feel this way?
Put a guard on my heart and it still breaks

Cross my heart and hope that I will live another day
And if I fall will you pick me up when I'm stuck in rain?
Oh can I count on you to guide me when I'm lost inside?
Oh can I count on you to find me through my darkest nights?

Oh I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I
I don't know if can take this
I don't know if I can have enough patience
Oh, why, why, why
Why do I feel this way?
Put a guard on my heart and it still breaks

No matter what you're going through
Hold tight and don't you dare let go
Keep in mind when you're down it's not only you
People go through it all around the globe
So don't be afraid
Promise you everything will be okay
Keep your head up and the sun's gonna' shine
You'll gain all the happiness that you can find

I couldn't bare to see my mother's face
If she had to put her son underneath a grave
Couldn't fathom how would my brother would be tryna' cope
If I never said goodbye and left without a trace
Couldn't picture how my uncle would receive the news
Being that I'm one of two from the kids he raised
Couldn't picture all the pain inside my funeral
As I lay silent crossing into heaven's gates
But I'm still here and I ain't going nowhere
Visions of my future were so blurry now it's so clear
Imma' face the trials of my life and live with no fear
Imma' be the best that I can be for those I hold dear
And if you're going through the same thing
I guarantee that you and I share the same dream
To be free from the burdens of your misery
Just have faith and one day this will be history

Cross my heart and hope that I will live another day
And if I fall will you pick me up when I'm stuck in rain?
Oh can I count on you to guide me when I'm lost inside?
Oh can I count on you to find me through my darkest nights?

Oh I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I, I
I don't know if can take this
I don't know if I can have enough patience
Oh, why, why, why
Why do I feel this way?
Put a guard on my heart and it still breaks