Lyrics Scars - JayteKz

My whole life I kept a secret
I never told a single soul
Thought that it was weakness if I let myself become exposed
I never said a word
Always kept my pain silent
But deep inside my heart and soul I could hear the sirens
Yeah I could hear the sirens
I was crying out for help within my own confinement
Many years passed and till' this day I'm still reminded
That I was betrayed by someone who I should confide in
I was just a child
And early on I was exposed to a world so vile
Took my smile, took my innocence, and left me stranded
In denial that this incident was just imagined
But it wasn't
I wish these words I speak were due to a lack of judgement
It's hard for me to function when my past is still alive today
I wish this was a dream, but it's not, I'm wide awake
These memories might be the death of me
I can't believe you took the rest of me
But I forgive you for molesting me
Just know you fucked me up and left a scar mentally

Take my hands don't, let go
The pain I hide won't, let show
Take my heart set, me free
All these scars left, me weak
Take my hands don't, let go
The pain I hide won't, let show
Take my heart set, me free
All these scars left, me weeeeeaaaaaaaak oh
I feel so weeeeeaaaaaaaak oh
Set me freeeeeeeeee oh
Please set me freeeeeeeeee oh

Can't you see you stole my childhood?
And left me traumatized
So much hate and self-destruction like a bomb's inside
No I cannot lie
I often wanna die
And if love is real, why is love so hard to find?
Why is love so hard to find?
Cause the only love I once knew caught me blind
I was only nine when you chose to take advantage
Your temporary pleasure left me permanently damaged
But regardless
I won't let your lifeless acts of cruelty turn me heartless
I can promise you one day I'll rise
I might be sinking now but karma's gonna' turn the tides
Take a look into my eyes and don't forget this image
Now take a deeper look inside and see what you've inflicted
All the sorrow I've kept hidden here is now forbidden
And I refuse to keep on suffering from your decisions
And although I cannot erase these acts that you've committed
I know my heart will surely mend through faith and be uplifted
And I will smile again
Go ahead and mark my words
You see a flower only blossoms if it grows through dirt
Although it hurts I must confront you and no longer run
Although it hurts I do forgive you for the things you've done
I know my worth and I will search until I find the sun
And let this story symbolize the way my life begun
But my story is so far from over
I closed that chapter in my life and finally gave it closure
I said my story is so far from over
I'm no longer looking back, I must keep moving forward

Take my hands don't, let go
The pain I hide won't, let show
Take my heart set, me free
All these scars left, me weak
Take my hands don't, let go
The pain I hide won't, let show
Take my heart set, me free
All these scars left, me weeeeeaaaaaaaak oh
I feel so weeeeeaaaaaaaak oh
Set me freeeeeeeeee oh
Please set me freeeeeeeeee oh