Lyrics Not Myself - Jeff Stones

I lose control
And I admit it I've lost myself
I can overdose
To get a feeling that I never felt
I look for my mind where to go
I pray I don't sell out my soul no
I look for my mind where to go
I pray I don't sell out my soul no

Too many times
I've been through issues
I feel I can not hold on to myself
Too many times with a broken heart
I feel I can't heal for myself
Too many times I've been through
Drama I feel like
The problems they follow me
Way too times many a broken soul
I feel like the devils haunting me
I took what momma said
The problems I can't hold
I gotta learn how now to let it all go
Before the healing I need forgiveness
My flesh is sinning before it's finished
Wishing I can take it back
From the beginning yeah

I lose control
And I admit it I've lost myself
I can overdose
To get a feeling that I never felt
I look for my mind where to go
I pray I don't sell out my soul no
I look for my mind where to go
I pray I don't sell out my soul no

Feel like the devils at me
With the demons all around
Know my soul attacking
No one is around to see
The struggle yeah
I feel abandoned
My family don't check on me
Yeah they left me stranded
My homies has no worries
But that's a different story
Just know the vibe
It ain't the same
Don't worry about little old me
I've been drinking bottles after
Bottles the liquor hold me
Drugs understand who I am
Mind as well control me
I took what momma said
The problems i can't hold
I gotta learn how
Now to let it all go
Before the healing
I need forgiveness
My flesh is sinning
Before its finish
Wishing i can take it
Back from the beginning yeah

I lose control
And I admit it I've lost myself
I can overdose
To get a feeling that I never felt
I look for my mind where to go
I pray I don't sell out my soul no
I look for my mind where to go
I pray I don't sell out my soul no