Lyrics Evident - John Anthony

It's been evident, I have been
So hard on myself
I'm fighting with these demons
By myself, myself

It's been evident, I have been
So hard on myself
I'm fighting with these demons
By myself, myself

It's been a while, I can't describe it
This path is takin' me the mile and I don't like it
Surely if I can just swallow my pride like vicodin
I bet ya I be in a much better place, but now I feel I'm right within hell's reach
I'm hearin' them bells ring and it's killed me
The more I try to explore it, the more I fell deep
And now I can't recover, underneath all this pressure
It smothers me as I suffer, escape is gettin' tougher
I must've been in, deeper than some would'a been
Need to adjust my career or else I'll be dust in the wind
Got me just thrustin' again, mind is so clustered and thin
Might've never say nothin' but I know there's somethin' within
Somethin' under my skin, tearin', temper is flarin'
Apparently I'm not aware of my own appearance
I'm disappearin' right up in thin air but I'm perseverin'
To the best of my ability, I swear it's these genes that I just inherit

It's been evident, I have been
So hard on myself
I'm fighting with these demons
By myself, myself

It's been evident, I have been
So hard on myself
I'm fighting with these demons
By myself, myself

They say you won't ever make it if you don't learn to adapt
So what am I supposed to do? Get on my knees and kiss ass?
And do what everyone asks? Funny what money can do
'Cause y'all don't know what makes a superstar in twenty twenty-two
I'm just hungry for reviews, that motivational feedback
The people who believe I am shit and don't think I need rap
Who criticizes all my albums and think they are complete crap
All this shit you speak, you keep feedin' me and I need that
Flippin' my negatives to my positives, if I gotta give
Everything that I got, then I swear to God, I'ma drop it in
I don't gotta fuckin' pot to piss in but I keep on offerin'
'Cause I won't stop until I reach the tip of the top again
And no I'm not corroborative, this game is where I came from
This basic addition, you make the rules and I'ma break 'em
Basically, you can save 'em, I don't play to your trumpet
This industry is got their hands up your ass like a puppet
And all of these fans love it, fuck it, it doesn't matter
'Cause once I reach the top, then you probably hope for disaster
Faster I climb the ladder, the faster I have my back turned
So I don't have to worry about faggots stabbin' it after
A bad turn is all that it takes for me to tumble
And I can sit and watch as my career plummets and crumbles
But as long as I just never trip or stumble, this ball is never fumbled
Then I'ma keep fightin' right through the struggle, it's been

Evident, I have been
So hard on myself
I'm fighting with these demons
By myself, myself

It's been evident, I have been
So hard on myself
I'm fighting with these demons
By myself, myself

It's been evident, I have been
So hard on myself
I'm fighting with these demons
By myself, myself

It's been evident, I have been
So hard on myself
I'm fighting with these demons
By myself, myself