Lyrics cold IV - Leon Vegas

I've been worried, yeah, lightweight
When people compliment me, I hate
I don't know why I can't deal with it
Shit has been up on my mind lately
Maybe I've been out of my element, I don't know
Maybe I'm crazy and I need to sort it out like whoa
I don't think that I have flow
All I know is I don't wanna be alone
People want to help me though
I'm just worried, I don't wanna be involved
Take it, take it, take it slow
That's what they tell me to do
"Don't worry about it, you're doing fine
Man, all of it's out your control"
Yes, but I'm a failure
I don't have goals, I'm in need of that paper, yeah
Wait, why did I spend half a grand on the music
If people ain't playing it?
I don't know, I just like doing it
Subjecting myself to abuse and shit
I ain't drank in a year and a half
Because if I had substance, I'd just be abusing it
But hey, I don't want to be like that, no
I want to say that I've changed
Yeah, I want to know that I'm great
I just want to put a smile on your face
But like they said, I need to slow down just a bit
All these facts I should face
Maybe I'm gonna keep at it
Losing my sanity day after day
Everybody say I'm underrated
I don't get it, no, but I ain't gonna go debate it
I don't wanna argue cause I never wanna face shit
I'm a little bitch so I guess I'ma go and fake it
I don't wanna play like any shows, make like any videos
I'ma go and hide my face, listen on the radio
Cause I'm a bitch, yeah, if you want the kid then
Then you should go and listen to the shit I dropped before
Taking time, I've been going off
Like a rocketship, I ain't gonna stop
I've been throwing shade at myself a lot
Need to chill with the hate, maybe I am wrong
Hey, I just need to be real
I've been venting a lot 'cause I'm scared and I'm worried
That all the attention I'm giving ain't wanted
And if that's the case, then I swear that I'm sorry
But I'm kind of new to this
I always say stupid shit
I just want to know you're safe and okay
I just wanna know that I ain't been losing it
Anxiety, quick, my sanity slips
I try to be big, outlandish and shit
I try my best to hide the depression
I can't do it, I need re-inventing
They said that my outlook, it seems better
I'm happysad, cause they both even together
Like what the damn hell am I talkin' bout?
It's swinging, my mood's going up and down
I should be happy right now
Why the fuck am I so stupid though?
My life, it could be a movie though
Maybe get Deakins to shoot it, oh
Maybe I'm kind of upset that I'm way too damn pussy
To share all my feelings, though
Ayy, I take that one back
I share my feelings too much
I'm just scared that I've been under attack
Maybe it's all my mind, maybe it's all in my head
Maybe they're wanting me dead
Maybe they want me depressed
Maybe they want me to shut the fuck up and I guess
That wouldn't be too bad
Leon, oh, he's too sad
I just want the boy to be happy
And I'm wondering where's his dad?
He ain't around, and that's good
Stupid fuck got locked up, yuh
All the shit that he's went and done
I'm just scared it runs the blood
'Cause if it did, I would (?) myself
That ain't a lie, no thoughts, I would have no doubt
'Cause if I was like him, I would need an out
Stupid cunt can rot, go and sleep in hell, yeah

'Least I can say I'm special in some way
I do not like me but I know that I'm better on like all days
'Least I can say I'm special in some way
I do not like me but I know that I'm better on like all days
I'm just a problem
I'm just a problem, I just need solving, yeah