Lyrics A Song For Bruce - MeatSpady

My pop gone so to him I dedicate this song
I regret the way we barely ever got along
I remember you would call me drunk on the phone
And tell me how you felt your kids was gonna leave you alone
I used to put the phone down like this nigga drawn
But I was unaware of what was really going on
All the times you would call and I ain't wanna talk
And I would walk-in on you crying sitting in the dark
These the moments that your eldest should've took advantage
But I was running of my pride so I couldn't manage
Even though it was causing psychological damage
I lacked emotion cause I figured it would make me mannish
I remember when I ran into the rail gate
You told me tears is for girls stand up straight
You told me never let another nigga see me cry
And when I got older I would understand why
Look a man in his eyes when you talk to him
Women on the inside when you walk with them
You drop jewels on me I just thought I knew it all
Now I be laughing cause I'm really going through it all
I know it used to piss you off that you couldn't reach me
But certain things I had to learn that you couldn't teach me
Perfect dad but you could've been a better father
But then again from day one you ain't have to bother
I always missed your point of view thinking you be snapping
And I remember 96 like it just happen
I wouldn't bring you back even if I had the chance
Cause I can tell you wasn't happy living as a man
How you was living wasn't close to how you had it planned
So all the times you came short I tried to understand
Some situations had me thinking that you didn't care
Like when I needed certain things and you wasn't there
Not taking into consideration the circumstance
The influential environment of a working man
Sometimes I gotta check myself about my attitude
Like least I had a father figure where my gratitude
At the funeral I told myself I wouldn't cry
But then that lady told the whole avenue to rise
I seen so many faces had so many flashbacks
I started crying wishing I could get my dad back
I'm looking around everybody eyes bloodshot
My tears probably still wouldn't if they could stop
You never even met my daughter that's the saddest part
But it's ironic cause I see she gonna have your walk
I tried to face it like you gone now and that's that
But in reality it's hard just to face facts
It's all good cause I know you in a better place
With a fresh bald head and clean face
A pair of jeans, new runs, and a fresh polo
A nice watch smelling good screaming out yolo
You with grandma and Dame so you ain't solo
And Shaddy riding for a fact so you ain't dolo
Had Bouvier on a string something like a yo-yo
Susquehanna Avenue my pop should be the logo
They say life is what you make it but I disagree
Cause it ain't about what you make it's about what you leave
Needless to say it but you left a legacy
Shay, Nita,Dame, Nay, Matthew, and Me
I ain't gone let you down either I'll fulfill your dream
Because I plan to be successful by any means
Annie holding on I swear my grannie strong
She hate rap but I know she gone love this song
Your only brother, my uncle, he so misunderstood
I see the pain in his eyes but still he doing good
I recollect me saying this in one of my raps
My pop left ain't no telling if he coming back
But that's irrelevant now because I know the facts
You in better place now rest in peace Black