Lyrics Sthguoht LiVe - MeatSpady

As I sit upon the bed
With my hands upon my head
Thinking bout the shit that I done read
So it's shit that I done said
Which is shit that I done did
My mind playing tricks on me
Back hurt so my spine playing tricks on me
Court room baby mom playing tricks on me
I swear to God I'm sick and tired of this shit homie
Prayed Fajr but I missed Dhuhr
Ramadan on my mind sleep through Suhoor
Still fast a whole day no food or water
Not even hungry when I break shit is outta order
5 years I was fighting for my son and daughter
I get anxiety just hearing bout custody orders
If I gotta pay support then I won't support them

As I lay upon the floor
Put the dresser and the locks on the door
Thinking bout the way I wanna live
Or do I wanna live?
What I gave, what I give
What I take, what I took
How I see, how I look
What I bank, what I book
Am I safe? Am I shook?
Am I strong? Am I weak?
Am I Spady? Am I Meat?
To win in defeat you repent or retreat
I won't retreat I repent and repeat
Take out repent and the sin I repeat
I'll share with you with my shaykh shared with me
You cannot mix the masjid with streets
Find you a wife and keep good company
I went and got two what the fuck did I do?
I care for her but I'm in love with you
Drove myself crazy with points that I proved
Loosing my mind and I'm singing the blues
Depressed
Stressed
I'm not at my best
Making it harder to realize I'm blessed
At times it feel like I settled for less
I'm just a mess an emotional wreck
I want respect but I show disrespect
You want baguettes all I give is neglect
Rather expect as oppose to accept