Lyrics Aiuto - Missing Texture

I loved this girl... I love this girl, I-
It's not even past tense, it's like an ongoing...
Man, thanks for listening bro, I really just-
Fuck this shit yo- (what?)
That's the bottom of the bottle, siete in my tank
Gotta down a couple more so my head can be blank (please)
You see, the last time you heard from me
My heart belonged to brain
And then after some time, my heart belonged to pain
Aye no matter what I do, or what I fuckin' say
It's always the wrong thing, and always the wrong way
'Cause shit, I'm a big boy and I got a big bank
But I guess that don't mean shit unless I got some dank
(It don't mean shit!)
I mean that green shit, aye- why these bitches into it? (why?)
Every time I'm tryna chill I run into some drugs and shit
I'm fixating on some stuff that I know was no problem
At this point I'll go crazy if there's nothing to condemn
And hell I need my mental, man I need my sanity
Half the time I lay in bed and think about my vanity
And I got no motivation to create what I love
Which kinda tells me I need a sign from up above-
Aye but then I start thinking man, what the fuck is this?
Do I really have to waste my time depressing over this? (yeah!)
Well yeah I guess I do, she was my genie girl
And it's not like I have Jasmines
Tryna show me whole new worlds (Get it?)
Or a dozen more Bitmojis tryna play with all my curls
And try not to think about all the dogs that want a piece
She's probably, ahem, quote
"Hanging with a couple guys, don't worry though my baby
Yo I promise you they're sweet"
Gotta keep a burner, if it's beef then you a burger
Aye, dinner time, I'm hella fine
Tryna find some peace of mind
Programming hit stun animations while I watch Adventure Time
Pile on creative work as a way to pass the time
If I didn't- Jesus Christ!
I'd be dead by mid July
I cry so much throughout the week
That people see me- think I'm high
I wade through all the shit and try my best to be a selfless guy
I swear to god, every day puts me closer to a bullet in my (eye)
I wish I could explain these feelings that I feel (oh)
My head is filled with panic and my body thinks it's real (for real)
I mean every time I wake up, there's a demon in my ear (shit)
It begs me to start my day as if I was full of fear (get out)
And sometimes I just do it bro, I go throughout the motions
But every second of the day that girl runs my emotions
And I dropped an EP, (PO)
To christen our first 30 days
Can't help but think sometimes
All that time was just a waste, I mean
But damn I smarten up fast
Appreciate the time we had
I don't understand- why the fuck will she not take me back?
Is it my body or hobbies? Is it my annoying laugh?
Pray to god every day
And still ain't heard nothing back (nothin' back)
But my momma always told me not to dwell on the past (yeah!)
But momma what if my past is better than what I have? (okay-)
What the fuck did you expect from me?
Levi Stone, I am MT
I'm a lover not a fighter I'm a motherfucking bumblebee
Yeah I hope that y'all remember my name
Switch up the letters ("Pokemon!")
If they ever say I changed, then I changed for the better
All you people out there listening
I promise I'll go get her (okay)
If I don't my heart will tell my brain
I got a scarlet letter (for real)
All my life I've wanted happiness
Contentment at its finest (aye)
But my path is so damn lonely and my mental health defines it
Aye consider this single track to be
My sanctioned cry to stop it
I need some fucking help or else I swear I'll die regardless
Aiuto