Lyrics What It Really Means To Me - NeverxHappy

Struggling to find myself again
Lately it's been so damn hard to get up out of my bed
There's always a fucking fog inside the depths of my head
Can't escape the feelings that I'm always gonna dread

Cause I hate looking back at myself
In the mirror cause I suck at taking care of my health
We all need a bit of help
Especially when we ruin the cards
That we have been dealt

I'm stuck in my skin
I can't feel anything
Drown me till I sink
Into the depths of my sins
Can I ever be
Who I really want to be
Clear my mind to try and see
What it really means to me
To live inside my dreams

Drinking to escape reality
Baby you know that I cannot go back home to see you
I feel so damn defeated anytime that I hear you
In my head telling me to be better, yea I feel you
But baby I've been stuck in my skin
Trying to break all of habits
Like drinking down the fifth
Of the flor de caña till I deeply reminisce
Of all the memories of me and you I miss

I'm stuck in my skin
I can't feel anything
Drown me till I sink
Into the depths of my sins
Can I ever be
Who I really want to be
Clear my mind to try and see
What it really means to me
To live inside my dreams