Lyrics Lifeless - NeverxHappy

I've been feeling so lifeless
Even after everything
I just can't stand to fight it
The chemical imbalance
In my brain, it got me frightened
My will to live hanging by a string
Numb to my core and I cannot feel a fucking thing
Overthinking everything I do and everything I say
A creature of habit that's been lost up in it's old ways
Starting from the bottom again and again
Climbing to the top but I keep falling back down instead

It doesn't matter what I want to say
The words get lost in translation along the way
Trying to keep all the demons out by the bay
I said that I'd change but I'm still the same
I guess you can say that I'll always be the one to blame
Cause I always breakdown when I see your fuckin' face
The one good thing I let get away
Cause I couldn't stand to be the one thing you hate

Living life but I'm still feeling so lifeless
Cause I know that you left me to be with someone better
Now I'm out in Denver at least I got the better weather
Fuck I'm trying, at least I stopped writing you all those letters
Now I just write songs, bout anything that I remember
Try to clear the fog but my mind stuck in 2016 December

I've been feeling so lifeless
Even after everything
I just can't stand to fight it
The chemical imbalance
In my brain, it got me frightened
My will to live hanging by a string
Numb to my core and I cannot feel a fucking thing
Overthinking everything I do and everything I say
A creature of habit that's been lost up in it's old ways
Starting from the bottom again and again
Climbing to the top but I keep falling back down instead