Lyrics Ctrl-Z - Otitis

I'm takin' it back, I'm takin' it back, huh
I'm takin' it back, I'm takin' it back, huh
I'm takin' it back
Think of the past while I'm lacin' the track
Closin' my eyes and I'm makin' it fact
I'm takin' it back

I always had felt I'm an old soul
I'd rather have roses than rose gold
I'd add up and hold all my to-tals
Rebellious, you stop and I go (Go)

Still trapped in the field of "I don't know"
The past is the present and both cold
I'd like to be sure that I broke mold
But I'm trapped in potential the roads froze

I wish I was ready to be a success in '07, back when the opp was in front of me
I got so close to the W, foot up in heaven, I chose the opposite one to see
All because I was upset and too scared to be brought to the hot rock from under me
I stepped my ass out the kitchen regretfully, all my fear boxed me so comfortably

Now I'm here wonderin' if I'ma get it again
Wait to be healed by the medicine man
If they appeal, hope a veteran can
Lost and concealed, tryna get to the land

Tried to stay thinkin' ahead of the plan
Ready to get in defense with the hands
Hope it's all love if you mention the man
Help 'em get off'a the fence with the stance

Feelin' unheard and I'm damaged to boot
Days I don't know, I'm like "can I produce?"
Might just get ghost, do what phantom'll do
Losin' my hope and my vanity, too

Hiding from likes of a camera crew
Hopeless, embarrassed, and famished of food
Thinkin' aloud, like "can I undo?" Can I undo?

I'm takin' it back, I'm takin' it back, huh
I'm takin' it back, I'm takin' it back, huh
I'm takin' it back
Think of the past while I'm lacin' the track
Closin' my eyes and I'm makin' it fact
I'm takin' it back

I always had loved a select few
The ones who kept me in direct view
When problems arise, they would rescue
The ones I owe all of my debt to, bet I respect you

And that will not change
Till the day that they put cap in my brain
Ain't no forgetting, the sentiment's same
Let me elaborate, pen to my page,

Was never too much in my bloodline
But grandpa delivered my sunshine
A man had developed through one guide
Wish I could re-see him just one time

Wish I coulda known, that day was his last
I'd've had so much to say 'fore he passed
Questions to ask, knowledge to gain
Thank-yous to pass, honor to bring

I'd ask for advice on adult life
On happiness, money, and love life
On 60 plus years with his one wife
On what would have warranted dumb fights

He passed when I was-just a mere teen
Who only knew half could appear mean
Imagine us here with these clear themes
He woulda shown me how to steer things

'Bout consequence, bonds to wrist
Confidence, God and kids
Thoughts I'd miss, he'd provide me those
They all been gifts I'd align in pulse, but

This just a mood, a test of my stamina, too
I'm missin' my idol, he vanished too soon
I'm sad that he died, like "can I undo?"

I'm takin' it back, I'm takin' it back, huh
I'm takin' it back, I'm takin' it back, huh
I'm takin' it back
Think of the past while I'm lacin' the track
Closin' my eyes and I'm makin' it fact
I'm takin' it back

Hop off in the time machine, run back thru the past from behind the scenes, uh
I wish I could find the things, sayin' why, to imply what my life would mean, uh
I wish I could go back, to a place when my mind was embraced, I was on track
Fade out till it's all black, with the power that I have, it's a fact and I know that

Watch me turn back time
Watch me turn back time
Watch me turn back time
I'm takin' it back, I'm takin' it back