Lyrics Self-Loathing Conversation - Palaye Royale

In another lonely conversation
Looking to you for inspiration
I see your resistance, hiding in the distance
When I go pop your papa's prescriptions
Never ever settled in a final location
Always on the move with my little lady
So they won't know me
So they won't loathe me
When they just close my casket so slowly

And you, I'd only lose
I'd only lose
I'd only lose you
And you, I'd only lose
I'd only lose you

Can anybody hear me?
So tired and I can't sleep
I try so hard but I'm in too deep
So cut me off of my noose
No other way that I'd choose
I try so hard but I always lose
I always lose

All my life is comtemplating
Either make money or make some babies
Living life easy or with a family
Making ends meet & meet mediocrity
I see your silent hesitation
A little head nod as confirmation
One step in the ocean
The other to divorcing
Moving the kids to a corner apartment

And you, I'd only lose
I'd only lose you
And you, I'd only lose
I'd only lose you

Can anybody help me?
So tired and I can't sleep
I try so hard but I'm in too deep
So cut me off of my noose
No other way that I'd choose
I try so hard but I always lose
I always lose

I'm lonely too
I'm lonely too
I know that you are lonely too
I'm lonely too
I always lose