Lyrics Troubled Soul (Bonus Track) - Quis , Arkh Zeus

Man I really wanna change, but I can't
I keep on losing focus and I make the same mistakes
And I be over-stressing, not a buck up on my plate
Like what's it gonna take for me to make it to the bank?
Like I don't know, and I don't think I ever will
All this fucking sinning, can I make it into Heaven still?
I been blowing dope to ease the pain but I'll never heal
Will I ever be enough for niggas? Shit I never will
I been tryna prove 'em wrong, but I always prove 'em right
They say Quis ain't good enough to be successful, live the life
I've got so much demons, I can't hold them, I can't find the light
Flooded in depression, I might fuck around and die tonight
I'm not suicidal, I'm just being realistic
I been sipping something purple, smoking dope, until I'm lifted
I been doing so much wrong, no guidance, no religion
I'm the only one to blame for the problems that have risen

And everything's moving slowly
Ain't got nobody, I'm by my lonely
God, please don't abandon this troubled soul
God, please don't abandon this troubled soul

Man I can't, man I won't
Ever change, never Hope
Man I can't, man I don't
Wanna smoke, but it copes
With the demons and the ghosts
All the lies, false hopes
It'll help me run away
That's the power of the dope
I been feeling incomplete, stressing heavy, losing sleep
Thinking what I gotta do to make my mother proud of me
And my father hasn't really been around to ever see
How much that I've been regressing, still the man he'll never be
What happened to my confidence? I used to have so much of it
Happened to my happiness? Was sad but now I'm stuck with it
Music was my remedy, I spit some bars, they fuck with it
But now it's not enough of them, I used to be so clutch with it
I guess i wanna see so many proud of me
That I'll put my pride aside but niggas still will doubt on me
I bet that y'all never ever fucking heard this side of me
By the next one, I bet that y'all never hear this side of Quis

And everything's moving slowly
Ain't got nobody, I'm by my lonely
God, please don't abandon this troubled soul
God, please don't abandon this troubled soul

And if you do then I'll be down in hell
Oh wait, already there whenever i'm by myself
Well that would explain why I have been ignored
Trapped inside this void, I already have been destroyed
Internally all for eternity
Ain't no reworking me, I'm damaged beyond surgery
God never purges thee, otherwise I'd be perfectly
Living, guess that explains that I ain't worth it G
I know that shit ain't rocket science
But I been treating it like it is, so I'm crying
On the inside and outside, know I'm tired
Of trying, I can scribe that I'm better off dying
Can't nobody tell me otherwise
It's all lies claiming that they words of the wise
Something that I can't condone
Everybody loves Zeusy but Ricardo's still alone.oh

And everything's moving slowly
Ain't got nobody, I'm by my lonely
God, please don't abandon this troubled soul
God, please don't abandon this troubled soul

And everything's moving slowly
Ain't got nobody, I'm by my lonely
Please don't abandon this troubled soul
Please don't abandon this troubled soul