Lyrics HELP - Part 3 - Rhxs

Ah, it's been a while all we done is try to make it out
We've never faked it once we always knew the route
It's been a while all we done is try to make it out
All I do is stay true to myself so never count me out
I've been lapping all these other rappers while I'm still on route
How the hell these other people never really made it out
When I make it swear that Imma really scream, and then I'll shout
But I'm kinda there 'cause made it out and bruv I've got some clout

It's been a while, but we really made it out at last
I've had hard times triumphed, and I've took bloodbaths
I've had big wins, but I've also had my setbacks
I've took big losses, but I never let my mind slack
Back when I was young I felt like bane without the mask
I was a true Spartan like a warrior on task
They'd call me 300, but I'm only one man

Bang, and I did it with the gang we hit our plan
Remember back in school we used to bunk off before math's
But then again I got expelled I was the clown up in the class
And back then nobody would see my pain they would just see the bad
I was the kid up in the class that joked and made the classroom laugh
But look a little deeper you'll see the scars up on this lad
See that all she's lived was bad
Torture and it sent him whack
So he used to act a little differently to hide his pain

Little Rhxs didn't know the truth he only knew his brain
And his brain used to take over
His brain used to get thoughts that would really get him fucked over
His brain used to get thoughts he didn't want to live to be older
All my suicidal tendencies

Woah-oh
Oh
Oh
(It's hard)

Sometimes I really think that my head it has special needs
All my weight up on my shoulders gave me all these enemies
But none of them know I've done all of this shit independently
I carried it all on my own while smoking all these remedies
That's how I kept my head and didn't end up with no felonies
And why I'm storytelling on these beats and on these melodies
I've got some certain imbalances just chemically
But I'm still the heavyweight champ that pedigree

Cooking in the kitchen I've got all the best recipes
And I've never missed one shot just like a penalty
I came from the dirt, but now I swear I'll leave a legacy
Used to leave the world when all my thoughts took over mentally
All my life my mental health has been just like a weaponry
Shooting me, stabbing me not really fucking backing me
All my life my mental health has been just like a weaponry
Shooting me, stabbing me not really fucking backing me
My own fucking head has really turned its own back on me
Imagine my own head turning its back on me

So I changed upstarted cutting up my misery
My brain switched up and then it started thinking differently
I show love to everyone and that's unconditionally
I've made life a song and dance and into many symphonies
And I'm still stood here today be'cause I've been consistently
If I flip that brick then maybe I can flip this industry
Maybe I could flip it into something like considers me
More than just myself and everything that both my eyes have seen
I predict a riot red Ruby like the Kaiserchiefs

I've got green eyes that bleed red I guess I'm a beast
Or I guess I got these dark demons up inside of me
Not no more be'cause now they're all out of me
Doing good I'm doing well I'm never out of key
I never asked to get here you all invited me
And so I changed up my life undoubtedly
Started thinking good and how I could go empower me
And first I started off with all the people that surrounded me
I cut a hundred ties be'cause these people they were drounding me
I was held back by myself and those around of me

Negative vibes bring negative routing
And negative routing makes it very hard sounding
Am I thinking logical or am I still doubting?
Myself and all these thoughts inside my head that I'm accounting
Times past by and it's countless
I swear now enlighten me
That if you work hard you can climb a mountain
I swear, I swear now enlighten

It's like I'm drinking holy water straight up from the fountain
It's like I've really found god's scripture in the mountain
And still made it back with bare time for my accountant
And still got this big fat wad in my trousers
And still gonna bless all my brothers with thousands, hundreds, millions, and I've got diamonds
You'll never ever see me getting caught out by them sirens

I could never be a Putin or be a tyrant
I could never been a Kim Jong because it's tiring
I spent all my timeless time just rewiring
All my previous ways and now I'm inspiring
That positive vibes brings positive lighting
I've had a lot of love and good energy recently
And I swear it's really boosted me up and completed me
Now I'm trying to live my life and really live it decently

Dropping tunes that's frequently and turning up the frequency
I don't know why all these haters ever really doubted me
All their hate and doubt it really changed me up undoubtedly
So I gotta say a little thank you 'cause you grounded me
Really made me switch it up 'cause all of you kept hounding me

And if it weren't for you, I probably wouldn't still be round today
Probably would of cut my throat and left myself to dround away
My mental health and mental thoughts were really drounding me
But because of them couldn't let it slip 'cause we had rounds of beef
And if it weren't for you, I probably wouldn't still be round today
Probably would of cut my throat and left myself to dround away
From being young was always chucked straight out my boundaries

Never said no to nothing and that's how I astound me
Never turn my back on anyone that's been around me
Never say no to nothing and that's how I astound me
Never turn my back on anyone that's been around me
And never say no to nothing and that's how I astound me
Yeah, I just gotta keep on moving with it
I've been hitting sixes never struck out when I play cricket
Look at me top of the scene and never struck out one wicket
Now I've got my face up on them elevated music tickets

It could of ended differently but bruv, I never miss it
Heard you got my songs up on repeat and g you'll never skip it
They call me Charlie now bruv, I've got the golden ticket
I'm as real as they can guess, but I don't bring no fucking gimmicks
This is just a preview of my life it's just a little snippet
Maybe bring a full one out, so you can all sit down to see it
What I do is artwork now I'm tryna make a movie scene
Maybe be in Hollywood next year man I'd be chasing dreams

Don't forget for one second bruv, bringing all my team
Move them all out the city and all out the schemes
We're all real kings just trying to find our queens
But I've never had jack, so I just found me
A few diamonds in the dirt found between the weeds
Remember there's a joker in the pack always sowing seeds

They call me ace of spades 'cause I can see straight through deceit
They call me ace of spades 'cause I can see straight through deceit
For all my pain and misery, swear that I deserve to bleed
I picked up the fucking knife and cut straight through my artery
But from doing that I really learnt that pains a part of me
Carried it all through my life and look I'm still around today
I'm really flipping beats actually I'm doing me
I'm getting rid of all my pain and trying to live life happily