Lyrics XXX - Roderick Porter

I just been so wide awake, i cannot take
The pain that i feel in my heart
I never know how to cope, hide it with dope
You were a part of my art
I still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
Tell me this shit isnt real
I still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
Tell me this shit isnt real

I just been so wide awake, i cannot take
The pain that i feel in my heart
I never know how to cope, hide it with dope
You were a part of my art
I still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
Tell me this shit isnt real
I still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
Tell me this shit isnt real

You helped me numb my depression, if only for seconds
It ment the world inside my eyes
Lets just pretend that were numb, snow on repeat
Days that i wanted to die
Bumpin your thinkin too much, garettes revenge
Sit at my desk while i cry
You were the beacon of light, darkest of nights
You helped to keep me alive
All of this happened too fast, part of me passed
I wont pretend im okay
Hurtin cause well never meet, feelin defeat
Shit that i wanted to say
Help me to find my own peace, i was so stressed
You showed me how to express
Quick when a bullet get shot, everything stop
Nothing as final as death

Nothing as final as death

I just been so wide awake, i cannot take
The pain that i feel in my heart
I never know how to cope, hide it with dope
You were a part of my art
I still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
Tell me this shit isnt real
I still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
Tell me this shit isnt real

I just been so wide awake, i cannot take
The pain that i feel in my heart
I never know how to cope, hide it with dope
You were a part of my art
I still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
Tell me this shit isnt real
I still dont know how to feel, i will not heal
Tell me this shit isnt real