Lyrics Devil, Deed, Dénouement - Saint Sleep

How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid
How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid
How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid
How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid

Do the bare minimum baby that be good enough
Maybe I'm not good enough for you
James is always saying do better
Be a do-gooder
Dont do what you dont wanna do
But I'm trapped with these roots
And they climb through the roof
With their thorns in my skin and the pain from within
Imma buy herbicide next time I leave the house
But it's been about a month and I dont think I will
Kinda funny how the world works
Never seems to work out and it gets worse
Kinda funny how the world works
Never seems to work out and it gets worse
Drones in the sky
They all watch and they love when you cry
I been under so much pressure
Struggled with depression
Climb out the rabbit hole just to get kicked back in
They all wish I could kick back
Only when I'm dead would I do that
You can chat with my skeleton if you want feedback
But I dont really think that you need that

How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid
How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid
How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid
How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid

You should love yourself
Yea right
Tell me more lies
Dont even need help I'll be just fine
I remember being like 16
With my lips blue
Thinking I'll be big soon
But it's not true
And it didnt even happen
Drown in my sadness
Shouldve learned a long time ago that I hate you
Do this do that I cant even save you
Kinda funny how the world works
Never seems to work out and it gets worse
Kinda funny how the world works
Never seems to work out and it gets worse
Where'd it all go wrong?
Where'd it all fall apart?
Havent felt happy since I first picked the pen up
Chained to my phone and I cant let go
But I wanna give up and I'm too headstrong
Been so long since I havent looked dried up
I'm on the edge of my seat ballpoint in my wrist
Let it bleed even though I don't want to

How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid
How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid
How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid
How did I get this way?
Never been so lost never been afraid

Love that I'm touch depraved
Love that I got no brain
I just wanna leave I just wanna get away from this place
Nah, fuck that
Fuck that fuck that
You can suffer all alone and you're gonna relapse
No one likes you anyways you dont need to prove that
Maybe if I kill myself then they'll all laugh
Wasnt meant for this world now run the blooper reel back