Lyrics Relapse Interlude - Sy

Cuz i'm living it up you can't count me out
It's the relapse of love ain't no way out
I wanna build up trust n i wanna go out
Right now too much needa scream needa shout
It hurts like a bitch but i gotta get through it
Needa couple stitches I'm a man i can do it
Needa move on but feelings retracted lying in my bed asking how my dad did
See i gotta stay modest can't self-over claim
Gotta stay honest it's my fault to blame
In over my head great thoughts of pure fame
End of the day all i feel is my shame
Sickening thoughts on my mental they weigh in
I pay no respect to these fuckers they saying
That i cannot do it all I feel is pain in the sorry attempts to re-amplify
The things that I hide
Preplanned suicide
I pay them no mind tried to be my best but you cannot test-ify to my demise
My final lies i sit here and lay them before you

Yeah My mental is lethal but i am much smarter
To let it take over aint no jimmy carter
I be making money but i aint no bawler
My ego is big but I am much smaller
And so before I leave
I needa say my final peace
And apologize
To those I've wronged more than twice
And said goodbye
Without explanation of where I have been
Or answers to questions to be following
I am not sorry for the way I have acted
More sorry for endings that've been enacted
Hope you find peace in a journey you take
But our two crossings have been no mistake
Makes me seem evil but I do not care
Some people can simply not be repaired
Never had problems with a truth or a dare
But as of today I cannot be scared
I've chosen my path and I've made my mistakes
And I aim to correct everything that I hate
I gotta move forward I gotta move on
Relapse of love it just feels so wrong