Lyrics Devastated / Cel's Message - Taz

I feel devastated I just can′t believe it's like this
I′m here contemplating I'm like look at where my life is
All these things that made me human, all my flaws are why I'm losin′
Lost soul, feelin′ all this pressure to be happy
How can I go smile while my mother ain't relaxing?
How can I be mellow while my brothers been relapsing?
Darkness from depression, overthinkin′ is what trapped me
I'm sittin′ here waitin' for these kids to overlap me
Why oh why did I quit my last job to be here rapping?
Fuck it if I′m doing this, then let me start it last week
See that imma kill it till' your fan base is
Collapsing, I don't give a fuck about a check
I don′t give a fuck about a diamond
There ain′t ever shit up on my neck
Yeah, I don't give a fuck about a dollar sign I don′t give a
Fuck about your life, I'll turn your neighborhood to Columbine
Notice how they never want no beef,
Never want no issues all they do is sit
Around and tweet, cry and grab some tissues
I think that life is bittersweet,?
Really hits you on the day that you ain′t there for me
Ain't no one gon′ miss you
They don't want me in their life, bitch I'm glad to fucking go
I′m just trying to get this bag, ya′ll can stick to chasin' hoes
Ya′ll can stick to trading alcohol for .25 a blow,
Ya'll can stick to smoking garbage and flexing with your vape hoes
Ya′ll can stick to being racist, homophobic, even sexist
Ya'll can keep the dropping $80 on a necklace
Ya′ll can have the party, and the drink and getting wasted
I don't give a fuck about your life I hope you waste
It, ya'll can go keep lookin′ but there′ll never be another
Ya'll can keep your cheating on your girl but claim you love her
Ya′ll can keep the sneaky shit and stealin' from each other and
Ya′ll can keep the Xanax that shit almost killed my brother.