Lyrics Homesick - Teo $ensei

I had to meet you for a reason
Shit
Back then I just didn't
Wanna believe it
Now I'm sitting here daydreaming
About remmeeting
I can't focus on a thing
Cant even sleep not even eating
I'm not even happy
Like I'm stuck in this void
I woke up one morning tripping
Help me clear out all the noise
And the times
I have my days with you
I never get annoyed
Thinking back to how we started
We ain't supposed to be together
Kid was trying to get some cudi
You was willing and you let him
Now day and night
I dred the moments
When I had to leave you
With that burly ass head
And small ass eyes
Regret the moment
I woke up trying to be
The master of disguise
I ain't the easiest person to love
But it meant something cause you tried
You had a vibe I could fuck with
Hog tied you doing dumb shit
Fucked up on some fuck shit
I became another person
Now when you near I look around
Don't say a peep can't hear a sound
I look down on my phone
So I just fade out with the crowd
My attendance gotten better hope I make my Parents proud
Started working at the track so maybe I can see her leaving
Maybe she'll get a man and maybe he can be her peace
And maybe she won't even look in my direction
When I eat
And maybe he got a bigger dick and can fuck better than me
Maybe his parents a chef so he can cook better than me
Maybe they can fall in love so she wouldn't date another nigga like me

Now I'm homesick
Don't make sense because
All this is on me

I was a player when you met me
I mean you ain't know it
So you wasn't even ready
Should've told you from the start
But being honest don't regret it
Cause if I would've told you that
You prolly wouldn't even let me
Or accept me
So I left you alone
So I wouldn't be tempted to try and get in your phone
But I seen you next day in the sun
In ya shades
Walking back the other way
That a nigga just came
My name history
My mind is a mystery
I let you spent the day
Walked you home now you missing me
Texted whole night into the day
Pick a time and a place
Did my thing
Now you almost kissing me
Texted you I want you to come over
Got you laying on my shoulder
Who would've known
It would've ended with you dissing me
Damn i fucked up
Wonder would she take me back
But the pain weighing tons
And I put that on her back
Damn