Lyrics Still Sinking - Until I Wake

Trudging through the dirt
Wondering why it feels like me against the earth
All my life I've searched only to realize
I've paid more than it's worth

How long can I keep this up?
I'm tired, and I'm barely holding on (holding on)

There's no turning back
Now drunken knives are dancing on my wrist
How did it come to this?
I gave it all I had
Now I just wait for death, as blood runs down my hands
Oh, as I black out I hear a voice say, "Don't let go"
So close to hell
Just take me home

How long can I keep this up?
I'm tired, and I'm barely holding on
How long until I've had enough?
I'm tired of living my life in the dark

Tall figures surround me
In black hoods with no face
They slowly approach me
And draw swords from their sheaths

Prepare to die
Is this what you wanted?
A blinding light and it all goes quiet

How long can I keep this up?
I'm tired, and I'm barely holding on
How long until I've had enough?
I'm tired of living my life in the dark