Lyrics Monsters - Yellopain , Ricia

I wish I could talk to the monsters
Have a conversation with the monsters
Ask them if they even know they're monsters
I wonder if they even know they're monsters

I just wanna talk to you one time, yea
I really don't want to, but I have to, gotta ask you
Did you really have to? (Ah)
My trust wasn't even that bad and I would've put it past you
Now I don't trust shit
'Cause you wanna do that little dumb shit
Wonder if you went to sleep that night
Probably felt bad, slept it off, woke up, ate something, right

I ain't eat nothin', way too disgusted, bitch
I was up cryin', 'pain in my stomach, bitch
Was it just tryin' to help you or control me?
I hope it helped you 'cause it broke me
I went to the pew to consult me
But it didn't change, I can never be the old me
Feeling lonely and I ain't want no one to hold me
'Cause I ain't wanna meet another you
Probably take a day, or a year, to get over for you
But for me I don't think I'm gettin' through it
When I have kids I'ma be so overprotective
Play detective 'cause I can't let
Knowing what you did to me, happen to them, not again
I hope you know I cry sometimes
I wonder if that gives you strength
Don't know how you feel, but I feel like shit, for real
Really almost slit my wrists, for real
Bet you ain't know I have nightmares did you? (Did ya?)
Bet you probably don't care (Don't care)
Probably somewhere with a smile on your face
Not knowing that I feel this way, damn

I wish I could talk to the monsters
Have a conversation with the monsters
Ask them if they even know they're monsters
I wonder if they even know they're monsters
And I'll cry, one last time
But I won't let you hurt me anymore
Still alive
And I'll die, before I let you hurt me
Anymore

I can't erase it
I know what you're going through, trust me, I really do
But it can be worse if you let it be
This is your moment, to see from a different view
I know it's a struggle 'cause you would be happier
If you could forget what they did to you
I know they invaded, but you still amazing
That's somethin' that they couldn't steal from you
That's somethin' nobody can take from you
No, it's not your fault so quit blaming you
They knew it was wrong when they did it, but kept going with it
It's nothin' you made 'em do
Keep hugging that pavement it'll strangle you
I know you can make it, I pray for you
Accepting what happened is brave of you
It's brave for your body, you made it through

And I'll cry, one last time
But I won't let you hurt me anymore
Still alive
And I'll die, before I let you hurt me
Anymore