Lyrics Shame - zoën

Traces of my past
Traces of my past
If I look back long enough I'll find traces of my past
Traces of my past
Traces of my past
If I look back long enough I'll find traces of my past

Like a worthless pile of diamonds
A caviar that tastes like shit
I'm perfect for taking advantage of
When pushed around I don't resist

I'm a feeble sole, a child's mind
Pretending to live in this abyss
I've not a chance for any good
But would settle for a kiss

How glorious to know that someone receives my gifts
Even if they lay unwrapped
In favour of flashy words from clenched fists
If I'm never enough for you
Perhaps It'll be enough for myself
Like a wine that's left un-opened
Never drinking to your health

I feel like crawling in the closet
And screaming in the dark
Like driving into anything quickly
And coming to a park

I have evil thoughts about the good things filling in my life
Better the feel than the believe
I need an end to all this strife

Staring towards another day's disappointment and regret
Would rather I could be alone and pretend we never met
But without a low there could be no higher crash to valley floor
Without someone to pay attention, no body can ignore

I'm a worthless husk of a man unable to accept his own self pity
A waste of space of a person who lies to make himself feel pretty
I'm a broken shell of an ego, I don't remember how to go together
A senseless weak failed mind using logic to hold and tether
In search of freedom from myself I am like a slave to my own brain
I said the words to comfort you
But now I can't refrain

A single step is like a bridge carrying my weight from place to place
I wanna see the comfort in me that I see inside your face
Your face it stares right back at me and tells me to go fast
But if I look back long enough I'll find traces of my past

Traces of my past
Traces of my past
If I look back long enough I'll find traces of my past

And they told me that one do I would grow up to be a better person
They said that all this shit would pass and that they were certain
That I could be the best a man
And circle around the ring of death
And that the air I breath would be sweet like your last breath

I believed them
I even took the words to heart
But now I'm thirty-something and trying to make something start
The time I've spent waiting has now confirmed to be a colossal waste
The true stench of air permeates every thing I taste
I don't expect you to understand the impasse that I currently chase
I wanna' put all my hopes and dreams
In soft skin and pretty face
But I was ruled out and wrote off all the charts I obsessively plot
Grabbing every flower to find a test and she loves me not.

But it's time to get back to work and do everything I can
Cause if try heard enough someday I'll be the better man
But it's time to get back to work and do everything I can
Cause if try heard enough someday I'll be the better man

Traces of my past
Traces of my past
If I look back long enough I'll find traces of my past
Traces of my past
Traces of my past
If I look back long enough I'll find traces of my past
Traces of my past
Traces of my past
If I look back long enough I'll find traces of my past
Traces of my past
Traces of my past
If I look back long enough I'll find traces of my past