Lyrics Cover Charge - filthynate

Back already?
I get that it's been hard but...
Maybe we should talk about it
Grief doesn't just go away
And time can only do so much...
Are you listening to me?
Nate?

When it all starts to matter
I don't too matter much
A laugh; a crush
A passing touch
But nothing lasts
A cast; a crutch
I rap too much
To ask for love
It's like I got a lot to give
But lack the guts
In fact the ones
I want always pack it up
Then dash and run
My heart is in pieces
Can't patch it up
I'm back to numb
The past is strung
In every single fuckin rap I've sung
I've had enough
Got my heart broken by a bitch
I wrote an album about it
I lost my fuckin best friend
I wrote an album about it
It's like there's power in sadness
I'd be so lost here without it
So the fuck am I gonna write about
If I ever find happy
There's like a 100 different ways I could say I'm depressed
You still wouldn't get it
I smoke some and then I drink
And then I start to relive it
The memories are vivid
That's the only place you visit
Listen i'm the king of closing doors
But never locking them
Pretending to move on
But hoping that you come and knock again
It's open so you waltz right in
Ignorin all the damage that you left
It's like a ram had come in headfirst
A tiger rampaged then dipped
I'm tired of tryna put out these fires
That's in my head
I've said all that I can say
And I've spent all that I can spend
It's tempting to give it up
But it's thanks to Raury I live
I was on my way to him
But now it's back to pad and pen
Feels like this grief is overwhelming
Cuz I never learned to deal with it
Compounding, every issue got an issue
And I'm feelin it
Astounding
That I haven't given in yet, but do listen
It's surrounding me
And there's no tellin what I might do in this bitch
Don't doubt me
I see you and I still get so flustered
I can't run from what I feel inside
There's strength that I can't muster
But the realest lie is I'm gon' be alright
It's tough to finally see the side of me
You see and realize I'm just the weaker guy
I'm done for
There's no motherfuckin encore
Nothin comes for free my dear
I paid for us in tears and mental anguish
So you're in the clear
I hope that you find happiness
I mean that, here
I'm entering a place where I can feed my fears
Be reasonable
The lights are off these headphones on
Find peace and cope
Or reach for rope
The curtains raise again
We know they need to close
Instead of facing you
I think I'll hide again
Instead of startin over
I'll go play pretend
inside my head

I don't really wanna fall
But the sky is so beautiful
I don't really wanna fall
But I'm fallin for you I know

This might not be love
I just want someone by my side
And it's you on my mind
Always you on my mind
This might not be love
I just want someone by my side
And it's you on my mind
Always you on my mind

Let's take a chance
Baby dance
Baby dance
Cancel your plans
Baby dance
Baby dance
Give me your hands
Baby dance
Baby dance
I'll be your man
Baby dance
Baby dance
Let's take a chance
Baby dance
Baby dance
Cancel your plans
Baby dance
Baby dance
Give me your hands
Baby dance
Baby dance
I'll be your man
Baby dance
Baby dance