Lyrics hospital socks (the reminder) - handkerchief code

I'm out
I'm free
No shackles around my ankles
Preventing me from screaming
I'm alive
Somehow
Am I better?
I guess we'll find out
When I saw alex again
That was the greatest hug I've ever received
I'm alive and warm
But there's still a dark shadow
Casted everytime I'm alone
I'm not cured
I'm not saved
I'm running on temporary happiness
That could fade
I hope I don't
Hit this low again
But these socks are a reminder
Of where I've been
Maybe I've gained some confidence
Maybe I've saved my life
I want to tell everyone where i've been
But I don't want to make them worried
So I'll keep these socks
And try to grow
But if I don't
I don't know where I'll go