Lyrics a terrible night's sleep - handkerchief code

After my shower
They told me to get some rest
This small bed
Couldn't contain my emotions
I was all over the place
Every 15 minutes someone would open the door
To make sure i wasn't dead
That's reassuring
That's a lot of pressure
To put on vulnerable little me
I rocked back and fourth
Stared at the ceiling
And I felt totally numb
I was safe
But I was locked in a psych ward
No escape in sight
No humanity
Just my scars
I wish my life was different
I wish I had normal feelings
And for fucks sake
Give me a comfortable place to sleep