Lyrics Ptsd - kendy

I know
Not everything's about me
But maybe this time I'll write a song about me
Bout my problems
Just to put it into words
Maybe into something for you just to understand my hurt
It's not simple
I have some battles with some demons
I do a lot of drugs just so i can kinda see em
But trust me
When i die it's my fault
Nobody else to blame
I battle with the PTSD
The drug addiction's problematic but I'll put that on me
I think my brain has no idea what it's doing to me
I'm falling down to pieces, I'm falling down to pieces

Everybody always telling me that I could make it big
Everybody tryna tell me that i need to quit
The drug abuse and bad habits and that stupid bitch
And my response always goes just a bit like this

Cause if you were like me you'd do the same shit that I do
You call me weak, I call me strong because I keep on pushing through
I see a peak that i can't climb and i still do it out of fear
Cause if I ever stop this running I think I might disappear

So let's take this to a situation of imagination
You call me an abomination, I call it domination
I deal with problems that you couldn't even have as a nightmare
I deal with bullshit that's my life story right there

And you don't believe it
Look me in the eyes and you will probably start to see it
I lost my best-friend, lost my twin flame, losing everything I know
I lost her knife, I lost my soul, I think it's time for me to go

I know
Not everything's about me
But maybe this time I'll write a song about me
Bout my problems
Just to put it into words
Maybe into something for you just to understand my hurt

I know
Not everything's about me
But maybe this time I'll write a song about me
Bout my problems
Just to put it into words
Maybe into something for you just to understand my hurt
It's not simple
I have some battles with some demons
I do a lot of drugs just so I can kinda see em
But trust me
When i die it's my fault
Nobody else to blame
I battle with the PTSD
The drug addiction's problematic but i'll put that on me
I think my brain has no idea what it's doing to me
I'm falling down to pieces, I'm falling down to pieces

JJ fuck I miss you it's as simple as it gets
This void inside my chest it hurts me and it feels like massive debt
And I cannot get it right cause every-time the panic sets
I'm back right where i started and i always get this passive tense
Why you keep abusing drugs?
Cause maybe it's relief and I'm just slowly giving up?
Fuck anything a motherfucker has to say
I don't listen to my parents. Why would I listen to your hate?

I know
Not everything's about me
But maybe this time I'll write a song about me
Bout my problems
Just to put it into words
Maybe into something for you just to understand my hurt
It's not simple
I have some battles with some demons
I do a lot of drugs just so I can kinda see em
But trust me
When I die it's my fault
Nobody else to blame
I battle with the PTSD
The drug addiction's problematic but i'll put that on me
I think my brain has no idea what it's doing to me
I'm falling down to pieces, I'm falling down to pieces