Текст песни i won't be happy - J4CKG

I wanted to cry
There's nothing brand new
Always wanted to die
There's nothing brand new
Always wanted to be on my own
But now no one wants me
I don't want to be all alone
"Nobody wants you" they tell me
Several hours in depression
They can't handle me
Tired of all the voices in my head
What's the point of living if I can't find a

Friend to rely on
A bed so warm to lie on
A place where I can feel safe
And to block out all the demons
Pray to God that I'll be fixed
Because I know I won't be perfect
I dream to be celebrities
I know I won't succeed
Wrap myself around the finger of the devil in disguise
Hurt me once, maybe twice
Maybe fought myself a few times
I know I won't be good enough for everyone around me
Maybe I should give up
Maybe I should die tonight

I pray that I'll be saved again
Running away from all my problems, yeah
If I can't vent to you then I won't be so happy with myself

The worlds messed up
Stabbings left right and centre
I can't live my life without sadness
Isolation ain't doing it
They still continue when they're out of it
It's so loud I can't even focus
Who the hell decided to play the whistling anyway
You're out of your mind
I think you're crazy
This crowd makes me wanna die anyway

I pray that I'll be saved again
Running away from all my problems, yeah
If I can't vent to you
Then I won't be so happy with myself

Every-day's a new day
Nah it's the same day
Friend group hate me
So they try their best avoiding me
Changed my personality so they really like me
I'm in the depressive state
Lord let me be free
I'm so tired of being down and alone
To the point where I'm called
I don't pick up the phone
I'm going through grief, the 5 stages
I can't even cry 'cuz it takes me ages
Sorry for everything I've done
I guess breathing is something wrong

I pray that I'll be saved again
Running away from all my problems, yeah
If I can't vent to you
Then I won't be so happy with myself

(So stupid)
(You're making no sense)
(Leave me alone, I said leave me alone)