Текст песни Utopia - CalenRaps

I told you once baby
I told you once
But I know
You've got to let it go
I told you once baby
I told you once
But I know
You've got to let it go

And lately I been questioning myself
Stressing cuz I put
Way too much pressure on myself
I never said I needed help
When I did
Holding in smoke like a soda with a lid
Ain't been sober since a kid
Heart colder than a fridge
Always seem to hope it isn't over when it is
Longer that I live
The more I'm learning to forgive
Every little problem don't seem so big
Cuz I know that it's all gon be over in a bit
And I'm too focused to commit
Ain't even spoken to a bitch
Cuz I got over being broke
And I ain't close to being rich
And I appreciate my bros
Cuz they exposed me to some shit
When I was barely holding up
But my upholstery is fixed
I keep a post it note
Full of all the groceries to get
Doing anything that I can to keep my fam fed
Never will I worry bout what another man said
Always had good intent like a camp bed
For real I can't waste a meal
My word is my bond
I got a handshake of steel
And I did it by myself
But my fans made me still
Cuz if I ain't have them
Then I can't pay these bills
And sometimes it feels like I can't be fulfilled
But other times I fill up on a handful of pills
Been riding rounding the city
With a bitch I ain't reveal
She just another thing
That I been keeping to myself
Been too worried bout the belt
To be worried bout his health
Busy getting topped off
Smoking on top shelf
Niggas only come around
When they begging for my help
But I'm only handing out
The same cards that I was dealt
Still inhale smoke when I'm living in hell
And my bag wide open til the chips go stale
From a Motel 6 to the Ritz hotel
Year 26 still ain't took no L's

I told you once baby
I told you once
But I know
You've got to let it go
I told you once baby
I told you once
But I know
You've got to let it go

I'm still an asthmatic
That be gasping for breath
I'll forever have this gap in my chest
There ain't too many rappers
Rapping with no passion
I'm the last of them left
Feel that pressure on the back of my neck
I fell in love before I ever knew the after effects
Now I'm dealing with the residue
Of having regrets
We used to talk about forever
We'd however forget
The good times we had together
When we heavy upset
I know I told you
I'm too focused to commit
Or be proposing to a bitch
And it's okay if you move on
I know my soul can't be eclipsed
I appreciate you though
Cuz you exposed me to some shit
When I was barely holding up
But my upholstery is fixed
And there's a lot of things
That I'm afraid to openly admit
Til an instrumental and my vocals in a mix
And we been trynna find our dopamine
With opium and shit
Cuz utopia ain't never been
As close as we predict
And times gon change
But it won't change the times bae
Still looking down
But my phone ain't been vibrating
Thought that I was fine
But you don't leave my mind bae
You just don't take the time
You just don't take the time bae