Текст песни Barb (feat. Passport General) - AnthonyxJohn

Yeah
I've been on the decline like a chest press
I've been thinking 'bout popping some meds yes
I've been thinking 'bout popping 'bout 20 and just getting some bed rest
Thinking stop the thinking, let my head rest
Thinking I see my friends less, might just lessen the pain for 'em
Thinking I go Robin Williams using the same forum
Thinking his struggle just probably felt the same for him
Suicide lives here with me, baby it ain't foreign
Thinking how or what's the odds it will even out
Leaving now, should I go Doubtfire or hang around
Know my friends sick of mine, who am I to just freak 'em out
That's why if I go, I go out in silence like sneaking out
I know deeper down if I stayed around I'd be deeper down
Debate release this sound or in aftermath, let them leak it out
If you could see me now, behind all the smoke, wouldn't be around
And if you'd be around, I need reassurance, I need it now
This that I don't care like girls picking spots where we eating out
This me pleading out with no fuckin' intentions of seeking help
This that only the sound of safes will keep me safe and sound
This that bush of kush I could beat around 'til my demons route
Couple drugs without no love will help me fall quicker
That's the sign I'm with white shit like a swastika
Coke in the room, help the pain dissolve quicker
But I don't do no soft drinks, only hard liquor

Yeah I am mature for an armature
I hate it, she baited me 'cause she has mad allure
Yes I'm sick, you know I'm sick so what you asking for
I was just tryna' give this cancer to a Capricorn
I'm sick baby, I cut the bullshit because you mad adored
You lit baby, tryna' retrieve her just like a Labrador
But shit baby, that never registered like Apple Store
Tryna' move to Boston, hoping they're ain't no massacres
Unless of course I just can't find what I'm fuckin' asking for
Mental state will fluctuate, psyche is spiking back and fourth
Going state to state like I have a tour. Brain half is torn
'Bout what I got, what I lack need more
I need you to pat my back, pat my stats, need padded rooms like a period with padded walls
Padiwan, force me not to be paranoid
Confidence parallel with a pair of fours
Think I fall into drugs like the trap house don't really have the trap doors
That Adderall, it add my all, it got me open
That Adderall like cameras dawg, it help me focus
That alcohol, still after all that got the potion
That bottle make me feel good just like it's a lotion
Yeah, how the fuck I'm supposed to carry on
With all this baggage couldn't fit it in a Marriott
Half the bags filled with bottles and Momma said alcoholism runs in the family
Fuck it, let it marathon

Sometimes the hate get to me, the pain get to me
So what the fuck can they say to me
I'm battling my demons
My legacy got wet cement
Shit I will catch 25
Don't give me a reason
It's young sporty
My big bro won't be home 'til I hit at least 40
So I keep it on me
This shit based on a true story
I hop in the booth like Juan just record me
They see bitches that I be with
But they ain't see the times I was broke, that's G shit
They ain't see the times when I thought I wouldn't be shit
They ain't see the times I was prayin' in the precinct
This real rap no cap at all
So when I say I'm that nigga, don't be mad at all
I used to be the Lil' nigga with the basketball
Love a drug, I refuse to pop an Adderall

It's young sporty
My big bro won't be home 'til I hit at least 40
I hop in the booth like Juan just record me
This real rap no cap at all
I used to be the Lil' nigga with the basketball