Текст песни The Mud - Beedo

I been through the mud (Through the mud)
I been through the mud (No going back and you know that)
I been through the mud (Through the mud)
I been through the mud (No more holding back)

Right now I'm combing through
All my emotions floating it's a view
I'm periscoping, groping for a cue, a clue
So many courses forces me to choose

But I'm still aiming for Mars, I'm chasing the bar
I'm feigning joy
Just try to rein in my art
This type of life not for the faint of the heart
It's stars in my chart
Seen my whole future laid out push to start
Push to start
We've talked about all my anxieties before its really boring
Try being trapped inside my faculties and feel the roaring
That's why I fill it with the pharmacies, administer soaring
Lately I just can't keep track of my, my own story
My brain got more grey than matter
Patter pitter from my heart
Don't stay, there's no way it matters
Stagger in and out my life
Trust me, it's never no matter
Tap the board, pay attention to the subject at matter
Do I matter?

I been through the mud (Through the mud)
I been through the mud (No going back and you know that)
I been through the mud (Through the mud)
I been through the mud (No more holding back)

I can't get clean
Swiffer sweeper? Swisher's sweeter
Smoke screen
Trust yourself and don't you ever teeter
Get mean
They say a closed mouth don't get the feeder
Watch me
Stand in line because it's follow the leader
Is it really me the one who's meant to make it this way
Feeling crazy in my head
You tell me it's all okay
Fight this feeling bubble up
I boil wither away
Lose a piece of myself each time I stay
I've had trouble with many men
I hope I have any sense
I'm feeling I'm ready
But then I crash again, I crash again
I can't take it anymore
I been through this all before
Can't keep it together
I'm going to crash again I crash again
Everytime I show myself you always run and hide
Repeating over in my head I never should have tried
Try to build a wall apart from where my pain resides
I just wanna feel normal on the inside

I been through the mud (Through the mud)
I been through the mud (No going back and you know that)
I been through the mud (Through the mud)
I been through the mud (No more holding back)

Verse three and I'm still struggling to tell you my side
It seems like two steps forward
Now we're in a backslide
Would my opinion be more suitable if I were to be a
Size one, blond hair, pretty, blue eyed
See that's a countdown
I'm on my southbound
35 to San Antone where I came around
My past and future feeling heavy
Mistakes I made are plenty
But I've forgiven myself for my past now
I'm in the next chapter
And the story getting better
Got that X factor
But I'm not a trend setter
No longer trapped rather
I'm busy penning the letter
To let them know the pen is my tool and not a detainer
This is how my story unfolds
I'm just out here telling that tale at all of these shows
I've planted the seed
You're watching me grow
And I don't feel it slowing down
I guess we'll see where it goes