Текст песни Dreams Aren't Random - Bleachers

Dreams aren't random)
A- a lot of times for me dreams are
Way more feeling than a dream (mmhm)
Um, which- so one- So I guess there's
Three main (right) dreams slash feelings I have
But the main one I have is I'm somewhere and it's totally nondescript.
And so it can be different,
It can be like different places but
I'm somewhere and nothing is going on
So I'm just in a room and I don't see
Anyone but there- I always know it's a person
So, for example,
It could be my mom or it could be a friend
Or someone I work with or something like that
But I don't- they're not there so I'm not ever face to face and it's
Just this very very subtle feeling
Where I'm in a completely nondescript place.
I literally can't even describe it (mmhm)
It's not like in the clouds (right),
It's- but it's just- it's not white walls, it's not black walls...
It's just, in the dream, there's no place.
All I know is that something is terribly terribly wrong
I could never see the person or place where I am but I know who it is.
And it's just something is like deeply deeply wrong
But it's not specific what the thing is?)
It's completely not specific; I could never figure it out
And when I wake up from that dream, which I have probably once a week,
It can take me anywhere from a few hours to
The rest of that whole day to get out of it
And it's like that feeling like you know when you get terrible news
And then you forget it for a second (mmhm) and you know
Something's horribly wrong (right) and then you remember: '
Oh!
It's cause there was that terrible earthquake'
(Right) or 'so-and-so just got cancer' or whatever (mmhm)
It's that feeling all day
So that's one main dream (
Okay)
Um, the second dream is I've- is a little more specific version of
That dream: I've cheated on my girlfriend, um, and I didn't want to
And I'm not- like, I'm not having sex in the dream,
I'm not- there was no like
Pleasurable component (right) to feel bad about.
It's just once again this feeling of somewhere,
I'm nondescript: I cheated, I wish I didn't, but I can't change it.
And that one is like super potent;
I'll wake up with it and I'll be like '
I ruined everything'
So those- those two are the main ones
And then maybe like once every six months,
I'll have this other kind of dream,
Which is really what the song is about,
Is- So I lost- My sister was born with- with brain cancer (
Uh huh)
Um, she died when I was eighteen.
Twelve years ago, wow, time, weird.
And uh- I have this dream which is super super specific
I'm with- my sister is not here anymore, and,
We're not doing anything specific,
But there's just this like- there's
This vague feeling that everything is okay
She's there, it's extremely real, um- she's the way she was.
She's thirteen, which is when she died.
She's that age
And then, what's crazy about those dreams is...
When I wake up from those dreams,
Which is really what the song is about,
There's this period of time which I really focus on, fascinated about,
(Yeah) where probably in reality is probably
Five seconds, but it feels like a thousand years
Right as you're- I'm leaving the dream,
And right as I'm fully becoming conscious that I'm in reality (right),
And that five seconds is like, for- for these dreams specifically,
When I'm dreaming about my sister, I'm- I'm in reality but she's...
Not dead (right)
And it's the most powerful experience ever because my entire life is
Based on- I feel like- in people's life-
Lives- uh- really intense defining things happen
And so for me that was, you know,
By far the most defining thing that ever happened in my life
So everything i do, if I like drink a glass of water,
If I walk down the street,
I'm doing that as someone who lost my sister.
That's just- it's like who I am.
It's like being Jewish, or six feet tall,
Or just like a defining feature of myself
Uh, and so, in that split five seconds,
I'm not that and it's like I'm literally a totally different person
Um, essentially in that dream,
Were you with your sister and she's the- that age?)
Yeah
You actually are transporting yourself
Back to yourself with her before she died)
Really?
Yeah.
So, it's- you're- in your, in your psyche you're that person.
We can sort of time-travel in our dreams.
Um, and we often do.
So you're that person, which means it feels- it feels like that.
You are that person before she died
And before that defined who you were)
Yeah, like I'm less complicated, too.
Mmhm.
So you may actually feel like your- your same age in that dream.
Your current age.
But actually, psychologically, you're not.
The one about your sister, you know,
As you said that's a very defining moment, in your life)
Yeah...